where the iced tea is

art, hobby & work.

2010-10-03T15:39:00.004+08:00

Colleague A: "Geez man, coming back to work on a Sunday? Don't you have a life?"

Colleague B: "I do. Right now, it's on 'pause'."

i love work!! :)) or at least e animation part of it.

maybe.

2010-09-29T23:35:00.004+08:00

maybe the reason we find the wrong ones
are so that we know when we find the right one.

:'( just saw some really touching wedding photos.

& aaahhh, Dexter, the most lovable serial killer ever <3 .

沉默。

2010-07-25T23:50:00.010+08:00

i think there's something sad about astronauts.

so yesterday i went to send lee yeung off at the airport w many other ppl.
it's funny how airports make you remember a lot of things about ppl and the times together that you seldom recall.

so to lee yeung: 再见 & 保重 ok!!

I really wish you all the best & I know you will make great works with your ideas & art :)
don't forget to find me if you're gonna make a great layered movie like inception!! I'll be your forger (actor/animator) hahaha.

Okay, so I haven't really been updating and it's really not my fault. (not to mention facebook is the new blog, pictures speak a thousand words.)
There's really nothing I can say about work T_T !
Everything's confidential, everything's kept in wraps.
Even I don't know the exact details though I wish to tell you how exciting life is in LF.
It's a really great working environment, no doubt about it.
The only bad part is that I can't share any of my excitement with anybody!! So if you ask me how's work, and I reply vaguely, pls don't hold it against me or think i'm snobby.
I REALLY WANT TO TELL YOU. but i can't.

Also, everyone's asking me "So you confirm going to Bournemouth?"
I mean, yes, I am ready, my parents are ready, but!

I haven't applied (it's way too early now) and who knows what might come along the way?

What if I get to work on an exciting project and wouldn't want to leave it halfway?
What if my name could be in some big project's credits?
Then I might reconsider postponing my studies.

So, yes, it's "confirmed" in the sense that i'm all ready, but.
the only constant is change.

i love the line: 這愛情無人証。

i miss sun yan zi and her sad, emo not-too-girly strong voice. so proud she's not imported from china or something.

everyone has their own war to fight.

Breaking News

2010-05-08T22:22:00.015+08:00

** BREAKING NEWS **

Contrary to popular belief, Clara is not dead yet!

It turns out that the lovely girl was simply willingly confined within the boundaries of Expo working very hard. Reports have shown that the episodes she worked on on the Clone Wars were very well recieved and she has been getting harder and harder shots, much to her joy.

Although more time consuming, these harder shots give her a lot of satisfaction, a healthy dose of pride and confidence which she was severely lacking of a year ago. Her work on the show was also acknowledged with a healthy increment and kind words from colleagues.

It has been through such medicine that Clara has kept her sanity and her health has been reported to be on the incline with the help of more trips to Orchard Road.

More overseas trips were also prescribed by her doctor to help her improve her de-proving vision, both physically and emotionally.
Though seemingly healthy, Clara's eyesight have been deteriorating, staring at computer screens intently for 12 hours a day being suspected as the main culprit.

Although seemingly emotionally stable too, Clara has also been affected by the horrible stories of the politics going on in the office and needs endless sea and blue skies that are not confined to a window frame to open her mind and help her to know that there are bigger things out there then games in the office.

Clear blue seas are also reported to help ease her worries about studying abroad all alone with no more chinese soup to drink.

Saturdays with friends or Shi Han are her favorite, but rumors have surfaced that she occasionally abandons them and spends a great amount of Saturday time cajoling her bolster.

The Nonsense Times tried to contact her this afternoon for a phone interview, only to be greeted by sobs and a cut-off line.
Her agent later apologized and said she is currently under Grey's Anatomy medication and needs to be left alone to be sappy.

An interview with Clara will commence in the next few weeks, but meanwhile, Clara would really like to thank God for all the favor and goodness and wisdom He has given to her, especially in the office.
And for her family and ~~fans~~ friends for calling her out to dinner and supper and offering her chewing gum and instant soups and making her feel loved.

flip that book!

2009-10-21T23:08:00.010+08:00

THIS IS SUPER FUN!

:D link to Benettonplay's online flipbook!
you can duplicate frames easily, preview your animation,
and there's even an onion skin of the previous frame! <3
the only bad thing is you can't take away frames, meaning even if you delete the drawing on frame 4, they'll still play thru frame 4's blank page.
so count your frames before you put too many holds like i did.

look at my 5minute animation that a primary sch kid cld do:

hurhur sooo fun!

since i haven't been postin since the stone ages, thought i'd jus do a mini one to ~~boast to~~ update everyone that i'm goin to korea <3 !!!

hurhurhur. i'm on my way to becoming a real 21 yr old!
i'm out to see the world all by myself!
I was wondering what am I gonna change about me when i turn 21,
so i decided - i'm gonna do many things i've never done before!
Before I even realized, it seems i'm already on my way to accomplishin some tasks on the list.

1. Go on a self-planned trip with a friend, with self-earned money! Total self-reliance x)
2. Go bungee jumping <3 !!! (Read online that they have a cheap one in korea *_* ARRHH. i wanna go, i'm jus afraid it'll be too cold ):
3. Do a facial.
4. Do a manicure + pedicure.... (i've never done no.3 & 4?!! wad kinda girl am i?!!)
5. Get a wii.
6. Buy lots of food for my parents.
7. Get an ipod classic.
8. Get the olympus ep1, canon g7 or the likes.

....and many other personal not-to-be-published-online goals. :D

you know, i like making to-do lists.
i feel very accomplished putting a tick next to the goal and drawing stars and moons on my calender x)

now to find a part time degree. anyone knows where to get a part time animation degree?

this looks kick-ass!

2009-07-27T10:11:00.009+08:00

BEHOOOLLLDDD !!!

THE TRAILER OF CLONE WARS SEASON 2 !!!

looks freaking awesome. :D !!!
i'm not biased. Definitely not!

Video Games - E3 2009 - Comic-Con '09

also...

Marvel Entertainment Inc., has partnered with renowned Japanese animation studio Madhouse and multiple-Eagle Award winner Warren Ellis to create four all new anime versions of classic Marvel Super Heroes. Here is an exciting first glimpse of IRON MAN!

lastly, a shout out to kai liang!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU ARE OLD! :D

bitter.

2009-07-03T00:38:00.006+08:00

when i think of animation, i feel this way :) :) :)

往前追不后退
I feel so good
快提高分贝
未了爱把速度都加倍
没有人跟幸福做对
没有时间浪费
做好全部心理准备
心跳起飞
不能放弃
随便彻退每次爱的机会
心在醉
心在飞
我敢追
爱就是超快感
俐落乾脆
不会累 !!!

- 孙燕姿 : 超快感

and a shout out to hui zhen for lending me her wii *_* u are awesomely kind!
even I wouldn't lend me my wii :S

i saw pictures of nyp n the old final year proj room on facebook and
OMG DO I MISS SCHOOL :(
enjoy it while u can people, don complain.

i keep tellin shi han i wanna be a fun YOUTHFUL STUDENT again.
you know, its not the paper that matters, it's the experience u get, the friends you make, the beach of FLORIDA you get to roll about on! omggg.
jia you mada! you must take 9486284365867 pictures for me to see ok!!! MUST! take every angle of the place so i feel like i've been there myself! haha xD

alright (: ciao,
more work tmr for the workin 'adult'.

beentoolong.

2009-06-14T18:24:00.010+08:00

it's been too long.

i really wonder wad i have been up to all this while.

well work has begun to get exciting again, with nice acting shots of some new kick ass characters, and i can't wait for season 2 to be out on the real big teebee!!!
i'm so gonna watch every episode i did on TV. not on the computer or anything (: its a different feelin, AAAHHH... !!!
it's like jumpin around naked versus jumping around in hot shorts and a tank top.
the former is totally exhilarating!!!
not that i've tried yet (: but the anticipation is already steaming!

the KL trip over the may 30th weekend was great (:
came back with many great buys, like Force; Drawing for Animators book, A POP UP CARD BOOK, Darth Vader, 3 clones and a wall.e toy (TOTALLY AWESOME xD), a bag, tons of chewing gum, and too-cute stickers!!!

this is me trying to snap shots of nice cards cos i don have the money to buy so many books *_*....

this is U-HU-HU ! lol, something like soft, halfbaked cheesecake in many flavors :D

Sher, Clarence, Qy n I ate 5 meals a day there, some of which include crazy cheap bak kut teh, NANDOS CHICKEN ( LOVEEE !!! ), awesome gui lin gao...
and oh o_o while we were eatin wan ton mee, we saw a rat as big as a cat, tryin to squeeze between the drain grills. TRYING TO. it was so fat it was disgusting! sigh, all we want to see are slim n pretty things, i haf more or less given up hope on myself.

oh we also saw a crow as big as a chicken. clarence was totally freaked hahahaha. its very amusing to see a guy freaked by fluffy feathery creatures, not just crows.

i've also been to too many weddings. I'm not sure whether I feel old cos i'm invited to so many, or so young when i look around me and they all look like they've already seen the world.
this is one of my lead, Ullas' wedding celebration at his place (: lottttts of champagne and awesome ice-wine!! I drank and drank and rushed off to KL on tat nite. It was a crazy weekend.

oh, i've also been busy watchin the korean version of hana yori dango (oh myy i'm such a cheesy loser! but i'm a girl after all, no matter how much i try to hide it at work :( ... )

my patience is also growing thin with some friends whom i feel are gettin more and more negative and over the line and jus, i duno exactly how to say this.
But its like they're giving off wry comments jus to look cool. Its sad that people base all their self esteem on others, and don't appreciate the finer things in life.
you don't have to put people down to step up.

i can just imagine these people, lookin at a sunset for a minute and saying they're bored already, or try to find reason behind something when the real satisfaction comes from appreciating it for what it is.

workin for money is definitely important, but i wouldn't save it all up for a rainy day.

while i'm young i'm gonna travel the world, work in many different countries, try lots of different kinds of food, look at the sky, and like the photographer's father ( great link manda!!!) , see it and imagine the hundreds of paintings i could do with that color palette.
i want my children to remember me drawing, animating, sculpting, painting, buyin toys, and living life to the fullest, just because this world is too beautiful to waste time on scrutinizing why, but rather, appreciating who and what everything is.

in 2 years, whether i have kage bunshin or not (: ,
i will improve my animation and not plateau,
move to an even bigger better animation company,
become real good at tennis,
make awesome cards for all my good friends,
try not to think that i'm fat,
buy even more nice clothes and books and toys
and not hate my sister as much haha
:D good plan!

see ya soon people (: thank you.
over and out.

star trek. live long and prosper.

2009-05-08T00:53:00.005+08:00

may all nerds like me \ \ // live long and prosper.
or "Dif-tor heh smusma" in Vulcan !

today i went to watch star trek with my company. IT IS SUPER COOL!! (quote quote from colleague, "...seems much betta than star wars..." =x)

AND i'm not being biased because my company did the effects or anything... just ask the at-first-reluctant qy, she'll tell you its damn cool with some funny bits too!!! at the end when the credits rolled and everyone stayed to watch familiar names scroll by, clappin and cheering, i really really really know damn well what i want.

one day i'll see my name up on the big screen too. i have big giant dreams to fulfill ! (:

oh this is damn cool and creative stop motion *_* just amazing: MUST WATCH!

and ! i'm totally addicted to Ryan Adams songs *_* almost-sad songs are AWSOMUS !!!
check him out:

come pick me up.

be happy tonight.

2009-04-24T01:47:00.005+08:00

been feelin like feelin emo, and been hooked on this song,
ironically named enjoy yourself tonight:

ryuken

2009-04-14T10:14:00.004+08:00

this is soooo super awesome i had to share it right now !!!!
hahahahahahhaahaha :D

if you don't get it, which is impossible if u're a street fighter fan, read ryu's line really fast! hahahahaha aweeeessommmee >:D

everybody knows. choose one.

2009-04-12T00:17:00.008+08:00

don't know where i was, don't know where i am, don't know where i should be going.

haha! don't know here i got this oldie from, its actually a cover of Leonard Cohen's song, but i like this much betta (: the winner is still the lyrics. awesomus.

Everybody knows that the dice are loaded
Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed
Everybody knows that the war is over
Everybody knows the good guys lost
Everybody knows the fight was fixed
The poor stay poor, the rich get rich
Thats how it goes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows that the boat is leaking
Everybody knows that the captain lied
Everybody got this broken feeling
Like their father or their dog just died

Everybody talking to their pockets
Everybody wants a box of chocolates
And a long stem rose
Everybody knows

and boy do i love long weekends!
feels like its a school holiday :D hurhur. i know i shld stop talkin like i'm a student and i belong in sch, but nostalgia never dies, and neither does the urge to throw away all responsibility. Everybody knows.

anw had a great day today! finally bought my sports shoes !!! been shoppin ard for it for 1000000 yrs, and all have either been too heavy, too thin and tapered at the front, or too wide !!! (most common problem)

my nike zoom limitless is gonna make me limitless!!!!
i can totally envision myself running to work and back.
right.

tried to go to Uniqlo ytd, but it was f**************** crowded like holy shit!! i was totally pissed and was oozing a lot of bad tempered aura, which i feel really works all the time.
at tampines 1 (stupid uncreative name >:( ) they had this semi-hardboiled egg thing which really looks like e marutama one! wanted to try it badly, but of cos, it had a long queue comparable to uniqlo's. ah well, next time!

the movie shinjiku accident is very tense. and lots of blood spilled. not in the graphical kill bill kinda method. like slash throat chop of hand kinda thing o_o i'm glad we don have yakuzas in spore. or taiwan gangsters. eew.

and after talkin to the gang, i've been thinking about ambition.
how far shld it really push you?
my sis is a rather homely person, doubt she'd ever go overseas to work. She strikes me as the rather timid kind. but i think as she grew older she has become much closer to my parents than i have.
she talks to them more, eats with them more. I think i'm a lot more ambitious and always wanderlust-ing.

but how old are my parents? how long will they live? how much shld i be at home and hang out with them while we still can?
how old am i and how long do i plan to work hard and rise up / hang out with my parents before they grow too elderly to enjoy life together with us?

the years are running, if only there is a real 50/50 balance. because after i started working, i realize it's not possible.
choose one, work or family.

ANYWAYYY!!!
another awesomus line test from the keyframe animator of
AVATAR: THE LAST AIRBENDER.
if you haven't watched the cartoon yet...DO IT! it'll reel u in right away! :D

avatar line test of 1th season by *blacksataguni on deviant ART

And everybody knows that its now or never
Everybody knows that its me or you

my blue shuffle.

2009-03-15T01:01:00.013+08:00

it has been a great week.

i ****think**** i've finished all my toughest shots, so now its down to all my pretty easy shots :D head shots of talking talking talking people. we had slushies at work throughout the week, celebrated si wei's bday w a lunch at changi airport (at the staff canteen which serves really good western food :D) ...

and! i saw some of my previous shots from previous episodes lit, with effects and everything done and it looks soooo amazing *_*. i mean, tat is like my work man! goin to be on tv! i can imagine it on my demo reel *_* ok, so the only person i'm impressing is myself but hahaha that's good enough for me (: for now.

...and then friday came.
and ended my week with a fantastic display of fireworks cos i got a free blue ipod shuffle!!! only 1gb but hey, wad's there to complain abt when the company wants to reward us rather generously for our tireless effort in animating rite? (:

we thought they might have inscribed "Please work 3x harder from now on (:"
but nope, it is just an unspoken subtext. lol.

and i've decided that sure, the grass might be greener on the other side, where all the big tall exciting uni life stands, but it is pretty damn green on my side already :D so thank you, god.

and this is super nice line test for nike :D (click it!)
......iiiiiii WILL FIND TIME ONE WEEKEND TO DO SOME 2D ANIMATION!!!!

and yay i am highly anticipating the tioman trip in july. PLEASE SAY YOU CAN MAKE IT GIRLSSS *_*
and if u see this, SMS ME YOUR REPLY NOW PLEASE! i hate chasing ppl for answers. esp when ppl only ans when *certain* ppl ask them...-_- totally irritating can. REPLY NOW NOW <3 NOW. thank you :D

I wonder why guys have it so easy - when they reply its like immediate and they can pack up n leave in 5 minutes. just amazing.

slumdog ftw!

2009-02-24T23:42:00.008+08:00

just have to say this.

8 OSCARS FOR SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE!
best editting, i think is espeicially deserved. (:

i lurrrvee this part when it just cuts -

WOO! :D

ALSOOOOO,
..........this is kinda old news, but.......
I AM EXTREMELY EXCITED COS I'M GOING FOR THE JASON MRAZ CONCERRRTTTTT WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
$145 WELL SPENT :D

my new fav from him :) -

Silent Love Song - Jason Mraz

feeling less than my ordinary self i guess i must be getting older
the fog already heavy on my mind evokes a time that's turning colder
at breakfast the effect is picturesque
the window opens up and lets in
the santa ana winds again

she's a silent love song
never stays long
does not belong to any person
though she's opening the curtains in my head
she's a kind of quiet
and always hides it in a flame
she's certainly a hurricane

strange how such a gust of gentle breeze can ravage hearts across california
you start to grow accustomed to her turn around
she's gone of course she warned ya
she sometimes passes in a single night
and other times she lasts the weekend

she's a silent love song
never stays long
does not belong to any person
though she's opening the curtains in my head
she's a kind of quiet
and always means just what she says
she's certainly a hurricane in bed

and tangles up inside and under covers
angled in her way seen as a struggle
but two lovers we're always in the end
and the santa ana winds again

i've been stealing hearts
where i don't belong (she's a silent love song)
i'm breathing hard (does not belong to any person)
when you come on strong (like a hurricane)
the more i love (you never have to say you're sorry)
the less i know (Anna don't cry)
Anna don't go

growing happily.

2009-02-21T00:03:00.008+08:00

-dusts the dust off my blog-

good morning world! (: (: (:

i am really busy now. because i must churn out many seconds a week and my weekends are burnt with friends and church.

it's been a total blur, i have no idea wad i've been doing so i'm gonna list down a random note of wad i rmb doing just fmi (for my info) so i'll know how i spent my younger days when i'm an old and weary 21.

____ ____ ____

- i finally went to the beach with my spiffy giant lucasfilm picnic bag and self made sandwiches and played frisbee and tried very hard to tan. (no one commented so i'm guessing my tanning didnt work though i stayed in e sun all day)

- i watched SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE. (listen to great ost below!!!)
IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED IT YOU BETTER DO IT NOW!!!! it is really great, i mussst say.
and great camera work. beautiful colors. fantastic superrrbb editting. not like benjamin button. i think e edittors of benjamin button fell asleep and aged while editting it cos it sure seemed incessantly slow and draggy.

slumdog ftw!

- i surprised my dear kaili on the second day of chinese new yr w ben & jerrys icecream serving as the cake and took lots of jumpshots :D i love my sec sch frens. you guys are SUPER AWESOME (:

- oh, and bakerzin has the best desserts EVER. :D i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee their apple pie chocolate cake everything!
try it, confirm not regrets.

- talkin about ben & jerrys, did i mention that i get free icecream at work every 2 or 3 months? like they'll invite ben & jerrys over to give us some love :D so awesome. come work here! haha

- i sit at my desk up to 12 hours a day now that there's lots of work to do. happy and sad. i can't describe it exactly.
happy cos i love animating! sad cos why does it always look so blooooodddy ugly :( one minute u think its nice. then the next u come back and holy crap ....its crap! u can never finish polishing :( it's not like a painting.

- i love street fighter IV !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO AWESOME!!! chun li's combos are super hard to use though :( esp with a ps3 controller.
can't wait for shi han to buy the joystick, muaaahahahaha.

awesome graphics, classic man.

- AND i completed a 950 piece toy story panorama jigsaw puzzle!!!! (: tgt w shi han haha. pictures up soon!

- i also regret not spending more time with cheryl :( off she goes flying away to australia like that.
i wonder how many are already out of the design industry? :(

our little meet-up for soup spoon and shaved ice before she left (and the mochi x)

so that's all for now i guess. i really can't rmb much hmm :S
and where is time? there is no such thing as spare time these days. everything's packed to the brim.
i want to do my own work i want to grow in animation i want to spend time with friends family God myself but where am i supposed to find the time? u can't ask for something without sacrificing the other.

a lot of people say they have something lacking.
i think i have got too many things in my hands.
:S its hard growing old.

beautiful and you don't even try.

2009-01-10T00:27:00.001+08:00

beautiful and you don't even try.
not sure why, but i love this line. (:

2009 - the beginning.

2009-01-05T22:23:00.010+08:00

I LIVEEEEEE !!!

wow, finally! after wad, more than a month of disappearance (:
december is my favorit-est busiest expensiv-est month of all and i think i spent almost all of my pay alr. HA.
last time i didnt have the power. now i do. LOL. aren't u glad u're my friend xD lol.

so to sum it all, 2008 was a crazy rush.
in a sum,

i graduated.

we stood ard bursting with hope.

we got tired.

we went out to PARRTTTTYYYYY.

i met up with a friend from faraway and from last year (2007),

and before i knew it i had a b-a-d scholarship interview,
was in Lucasfilm, and made some great friends,

had the best mentors, namely Shawn Kelly of animation mentor and Kevin Martel the animation mentor mentor,

...didn't get much birthday presents OR christmas presents ( but i have since resolved to buy myself more presents hahaha)...

had some great parties :D

^ LAS dinner n dance '08 (:

^ awesome chalet by musclekid jiesheng

^ THE GOLDEN COUNTDOWN; aka human bidding party at clarence's

and whew. i still hardly register its already 2009. Thank God for 2008, it was totally awesome o_o. my dreams come true, really.
So right here and now, i make 2 resolutions!

1. Reach the office by 830am mon-fri!
2. Pray fervently everyday.

i think that shld get me through the yr (:
So cheers to a year of more awesome surprises, better animation, more money, good health and more friends (:

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRR !!!
God bless you!
i love you!

Japan Media Arts Festival

2008-11-23T00:43:00.009+08:00

Japan Media Arts Festival

i am a very happy girl today!
shi han said he wanted to bring me somewhere special; at first i thought he was gonna bring me to the toy museum cos we met up at city hall, instead, he brought me to many art exhibitions he read about from the newspaper! :D super awesome ones at that. Thank youuu (: (: (:

first up were the exhibits at the raffles arcade area, of some pop culture acrylic prints; i thought the choices of colors that were overlaid over each other were really good.

and then there was the Japan Media Arts Festival! You're supposed to pay $3 to get in, but shi han and i just showed our nyp student cards and we got in for freeeee :D yayyy.

*which reminds me :D tat amelie n yong ming are in Japan right nowwww *_* gahh! so envious! take care and have fun!*

**i apologize for the lousy camera phone quality pictures **

LOOK AT THIS.
is this cool or whatttt. when i first saw it my jaw just dropped. it looked like it just crawled out of a Miyazaki film mixed with some Naruto influence.

super cool.

still super cool.

super scary cool!
we spotted tiny metal plugs on his butt, which wld cause e light bulbs in him (see white bobs on spine n shoulders) to light up ** if only they wld plug him in, he wld be totally wicked.

oh n see this whole series of models?
they're actually scenes in a story about a powerful samurai and some monsters :D very cool, too.

i really like the little detail of his dropped bottle, complete with water splashing out! :D

:D greatttt saturday!
rechargeddd and ready for monday (:!

d-day; mr potato; jeremys and jasons and alexs

2008-11-19T21:05:00.009+08:00

wowwww.

i realize i have neglected my blog for a month now!
many things have happened, though mostly uneventful. it has just been work, eat, sleep, saturday out watching movie/shopping/chilling/sleeping and sunday's churching.

oh, though i must say i'm beginning to enjoy how happening my company is. All the parties and alcohol and free movies and thursday breakfasts really makes one feel very welcome (:
my d-day is on 28th november. whether i get to stay or have to leave, i think i can say for certain that it has been the best working experience, and will continue to be the best experience as an animator in Singapore. You won't find a place like this elsewhere on this tiny island. Thankyou, Lucasfilm. I learnt more about animation & production in 5 months than i ever learnt in my 3 yrs of school, and I've never been so excited just watching monthlies, and proposals of upcoming projects. Work has really made me feel more alive than I had ever imagined.

I'm not sure if anyone can understand how i feel, but to be so excited and humbled by all the great ppl around you; it's not something that can be found easily. During my internship, i thought i was just a lazy ass cos i hated work and i hated the whole experince.

But now i know, that it's the people and the job scope that were all wrong. I couldn't be happier here & now; and i don't know what I wld do if i can't stay.
Probably lie on my bed all december and emo; get up on the 25th to open my presents; then go lie back down again. I probably could do some online shopping for therapy, too.

oh well, i try not to think about it. It'll just affect my focus and cause me to read too much into everyone's gestures :S

Btw, the company's Halloween party was greattt;

- the super in-character Joker in Nurse costume won the first prize - and we only found out a week later that he wasn't really acting, he's just naturally hunched and awkward, haha;
- iron man in his white singlet and self-made "battery" in chest won second prize (it was a wiiiiii *_*);
- and girl in sexy corset and sponge ball boobs (i'm serious; they even popped out of her corset when she was performing but she coolly put them back in on stage)
won third prize;...

...i'm soooo dressing up if i'm still here next halloween !!!!
Probably transformers or something, hurhur :D see see:
so cool rite! esp optimus prime.

gahhh. geeeekk.
today i went to cut my hair at a new salon; he was trying to chat with me and i realize i'm not cool at all; and very much wanted to tell him geek stuff like movies and james bond and star wars and transformers...but in the end i just shut my trap and stoned. i need to be able to talk abt more stuff besides geek :(.

well today my new hairdresser was called Jeremy :D .
I realize all the Jeremys i've met are handsome (hehehe), all the Jasons are jerks (all FIVE of them; except for no.SIX who's jap-looking, totally cool and kind to old ladies), and all the Alexs act tough but are actually very sweet and nice, and all the Jaspers are natural clowns.

sorry to be so random and babble, i just need to get these words off my brain!
will post pics up when i get them (: !

oh here's one last last week (koped from manda!)
me and my mr potato toy from toy story trying to be indiana jones !!! hahahaha.
how awesome is that.
it plays the indiana theme song when u press his hat; and all his parts can be kept inside him or swapped around, just like e real mr potato toyyy !!! :D :D :D
**if you notice, it was wrapped in pink BARBIE wrapper that says "If the shoe fits, buy them in every color!" HAHA. Great advice zal & mirah, i'll try to keep that in mind when i'm shopping xD ! **

thank you all, (: and thanks dear shi han for my flaming redhot sexy ipod nano (: (: (:
i love you all very very very much !!! <3 <3 <3

ohhh and here's an animation short that my friends at work love very much, hahaha.
POCOYO !
i think its very amusing how he walks about flippin on his head and how the movements are super duper snappy but not jerky or jarring. pretty cute :D

enchanted by the old classics.

2008-10-18T00:43:00.008+08:00

enchanted.

[EDIT] at borders bistro: last last last fri :D (qiu yi how come we nv take pictures ah?!) [/EDIT]

i just bought mulan last saturday. I saw it in gramaphone and i just cldn't resist cos i rmb loving it and watching it so many times that my mum's friend got tired of lending it to us again and again she just decided to give it to us. lol.

AND it is still as awesome. :D

and look at this fantastic painting!!! <3

i was just reading animation mentor's industry report today, and according to them, animators are the happiest, most satisfied workers next to clergies!!!
I think i'm on the right path. haha!!! awesomeness :D
i'm so enchanted by animation, over and over. How can you ever get sick of it? It's like learning something new about someone everyday, and getting to know different ppl everyday, gettin to know wall.e, to know mulan, to know mace windu, to know plo koon,
(: I AM HAPPPPPPPPYYYYY.

btw, ej lent me this book called Dream Worlds by Hans Bacher, who won some award for his production design work on Mulan (: (: (: and needless to say his other works in other disney classics are breathtaking too, and the expanse of his knowledge on composition, staging, analyzing, is a whole galaxy to explore. Do check it out, i'm gonna try to find it in Basheer tml :D

i really like how he talks abt his work, how he tried to put it tgt, etc. Its really really really worth a good read.

Today we had a little session with the director, and sometimes i find it quite sad, and how true, how ppl outside don get how hard we work, how much thought we put into it.
As our supervisor likes to quote his favorite dancer, "it looks the nicest when it looks effortless". And i really have to agree.
Look at Pixar. They make it look so easy, as if the arcs just automatically clicked in but if you ever tried... it is gahhhh.
So i have another goal to add to the list (: - BE EFFORTLESS, PEOPLE!

been a good week, :D as usual.

except for tuesday when we had our monthly movie - Burn After Reading. I know Brad Pitt and George Clooney is in it and thus it sounds quite irresistable, but seriously, it sucks. its the kind of movie that have you going "WHAT?" at the end of it, and its the kind of movie you'll nv watch twice.

ok, nx update when i get some pictures! (:

P.S. BE HAPPY, BE AN ANIMATOR!!!! :D

P.S.S. BE REALLY HAPPY :D :D :D BE A CLERGY ANIMATOR!

life is a journey...

2008-09-28T01:25:00.005+08:00

hahaha, isn't this awesome :D sign up for harold's planet daily cartoons now !
HERE :D http://www.haroldsplanet.com/

out of step while everyone gets in line.

2008-09-25T00:21:00.002+08:00

out of step while everyone gets in line.

clara loves youtube for all the unknown ppl you can suddenly find.

my girls.

2008-09-14T19:22:00.004+08:00

all that you need sometimes.

it was dear hui zhen's birthday ytd :D
so happy birthday dear!!!

my saturday went really well despite me waking up really late.
It ended with a ton of ice-cream cake and ice-cream mooncakes, and started with a ton of board games:
Loaded Questions, Pictionary, Taboo, Charades, Twister!
that was till dinner.

then it was wii-ing till late late.
come to think of it, i spent 12noon to 12+am with them ytd! Haha :D
i always have awesome fun with you girls. I love you!

i wanna tell you, how much i love you.

2008-09-13T01:55:00.003+08:00

so, for a while now.

Sea of Love - by Cat Power from Juno OST

:(.

Out there, full of shine and full of sparkle

2008-09-10T00:39:00.004+08:00

Out there, full of shine and full of sparkle

i was also listening to La Vie En Rose by Louis Armstrong (wall.e ost), and i suddenly realized another reason i love wall.e (:
it's vintage meets ipod! :D
in every sense of the word, in terms of music, design, story design, etc.
what could be better.

i watched wall.e a second time and had time to watch out for e cameras and composition etc. I realize i agree with one of the reviewers, that the first 40 minutes is pure magic, like e old classic pantomimes of Charlie Chaplin, but aft tat it starts to go downhill.
Of course it wasn't as magical watching it the second time, but the animation still amazes me. And if you want back the magic, just listen to the ost :D
imagine the camera pan in to a dusty orange planet called Earth, and hear a voice sing, "...out there, full of shine and full of sparkle!.."

Wall.e is magic !!! :D i bought some (expensive) wall.e postcards to stick up on my desk as motivation for greater animation heights today. haha, how can you ever get enuff!
never stop tweaking, never stop looking at your graph, never stop watching e arcs, never stop making sure the beats in your shot are clear.

2008-09-04T22:34:00.003+08:00

(: definitely one of my favorite french songs ever

Le Festin by Camille

Better Together.

2008-09-04T00:10:00.002+08:00

all questions answered.

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart.

Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer.

adult content.

2008-09-02T20:57:00.014+08:00

beware: adult content.

last last saturday, dinner n spinelli (oh tat gorgeous blueberry cheesecake!), with the usual gang and ms grace n peter. i really shld stop calling her 'MISS' grace. lol.

it totally blows my cover of acting adult-ish in my company. we always have these social gatherings with alcohol and all, and i just blurt out "HEY MISS GRACE!"

inside, i just want to be a student! haha. so stress free.
if you think school is stressful, think again.
mada and our very delicious blueberry cheesecake.
_________________________________________________________________

then last saturday was the company's beach party!!! ADULT beach party with lotssss of booze and some skimpily dressed ppl. hahahaha. I rmb i drank this horrible shot of pure vodka with salt n lemon. gross. Gin tonic's pretty good though, just rmb to ask them to add lots of lime, and i'm starting to really like whisky coke.

Kevin and his awesome new shirt!
(before the booze, all proper and straight)

the alcohol kicking in.

Alcoholic Animators (and one wife) UNITE!
(after the booze, all slouchy and slumped!)

the crazy squeeze in Barry's car out of sentosa at midnight (: i have nice collegues. as the only girl, i got to sit in front like a princess. haha.

so, in short, i'm trying to grow up, but i know i really don't want to.
i think i don really like socializing and hanging out with unknown ppl, but its really getting easier than before (: esp when everyone's crazy about animation n films, its pretty easy to catch on the conversation. Not to mention the fact that i'm the only girl hanging out wiht 12 guys make me stick out like a sore thumb, so ppl rmb me.
(i am a steak?)

sigh, its all going by in a blur. and now our mentor Kevin's gone, which is really quite sad. We hung out with him much more, so i really think he's gonna be missed in the studio. it's been an awesome 2 months, and i'm so thankful.

No matter whether my mum thinks i suck and can't go anywhere, i'll get somewhere i want to go, soon (: AND GO WATCH WALL.E, PEOPLE!!!

Wall.e

2008-09-02T00:17:00.006+08:00

Computer, define animation: Wall.e

i just watched wall.e
it is amazing, astounding, inspiring, truly truly truly, one of the best animation films i've seen.

it just, blew me away.

if you do animation, if you do acting, if you do story, this is one of those you really need to watch. it's so laid down for you to feel. not stick in your face kinda comedy or soppy drama but,..
i sat down, not expecting much. And they didn't give much according to Hollywood's standards, according to perhaps mass appeal standards, but it is so simple so powerful.

as an animator, i mean, i was awed. i was touched, i was totally inspired.
imagine this.
can a box with eyes make you cry? or a white ipod lookalike cylinder with just 4 pairs of default eyes? its...awesome.

every step of the way i was wondering, how the hell are they gonna portray tat on a box?! if i were given any of those shots in e film, i cldn't even start.
they made it look so simple.
no whambam explosions in your face, or a spectacular array of color or french allure (ala Ratatouille), no fast cuts or crazy action sequences, just plain simple, film at one of its best.

i read a review online, and it stated that if wall.e was done by any other studio other than Pixar, even disney, wall.e wld have a heroic voice, the cockroach will be a wisecracking sidekick with wisdom in the form of pop culture metaphors...and it wld just be another animation film.

But Pixar, thank you (: for making me inspired and excited and beefed up abt doing and upping my standards. No mediocre for Clara, i want to be wonderful.

i'm not gonna be just another animation film. not just another cute robot character. You don't see the animation behind it, the thoughts, the acting. You're so wrong if you think its just some cute animation and another film.

i mean, animation doesn't only mean Horton kinda thing. it doesn't mean the bodies of the characters have to do things humans can't. being exaggerated, being over-animated is one thing, but the subtle, small things are wads really powerful. anyone can animate an outwardly shocked or angry character, but to put out a msg across with just a hand gesture, that is astounding acting and genius of animators via a box called wall.e and an oval called eve.

Carolina liar and ninjas.

2008-08-17T22:08:00.007+08:00

stuck in a jukebox.

whew, long hiatus all thanks to work and crazy weekend schedules.
was really glad yesterday that we decided to head down to nlb for some drawing.

my pen's getting real rusty, as you will see from my sketches. haha. there's this awesome ninja/samurai book in e nlb with all e offensive/defensive poses in different angles! definitely great for animation poses.

gah, my scanner sucks, the bottom left drawing is blurry :( there's more but i prob wont scan them. fupid scanner.

then there's also this nike ad i saw on a magazine. not my concept, i just kinda fanart-ed it cos i think its so quirky cute simple nice. you get what i mean. it's probably my favorite nike print ad so far.

its awesome seeing planes every morning as i head down to work too (: i have one of the best jobs in the worlddddd.

here it comes in the morning, i'm just trying to forget.
keep it real keep it simple, somehow, just get out of bed.
and this city is endless, i'm as cold as a stone.
...
sunlight creeps in between the curtains.
lose the sheets, there's no time for sleep.
i lie, i pretend till i'm almost certain, it's a beautiful world.
- Carolina Liar (on repeat mode all thanks to qy!)

coffee clubbers.

2008-07-20T21:55:00.003+08:00

coffee clubbers.

gossiping over kick-ass coffee.

last last sat, 12th july, was absolutely fantastic!!! we finally had our long talked abt but nv fulfilled tea-break at kino's coffeeclub, and OOOMMPPH. it was fantastic.

picture this:
a shot of expresso, topped with lightly frothed milk, add a dollop of whipped cream and complete the dream with a generous scoop of vanilla ice-cream with a hint of cinnamon powder.

O M G.
it was pure coffee heaven for me. its like the first sip, o_o gasp. bitterrrr espresso punches you awake. then you furiously stir the whip cream in, take another sip, still quite bitter. so you take a spoon of icecream.

you like the combination.

so it goes on. bitter, then sweet, bitter then sweet. and as you gossip over the coffee and chatter on about how dirty gritty cool Prince Nuada is with his kick your ass spear and gymnastics (reminds me of darth maul), bits of the icecream melts and weaves into with the bitter expresso while the whipped cream sinks in slowly and lightens it up.

then you take a sip.
aaahhh, coffee heaven with the best company in town (: .

A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book.
~Irish Proverb

missing out.

2008-07-07T21:47:00.004+08:00

i do. sorry i haven't been posting much, pretty much been at work all day then dinner then tv or a date with whoever i miss most. i'm happy but i'm not, because i'm being extremely silly and you just gotta give and take.

shi han is right. I always want to have all the pie and eat it. i'm greedy, even for things i don't ~~really~~ even care about. it's one thing to have seemingly dreamy impossible expectations of yourself, and another thing to want everything and everyone.
i need to stay focused and sincere and do more kick ass animation, hold on to your seats!!!

2008-06-29T19:49:00.009+08:00

I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT...

OMGGGG i'm dying to tell everyone wad EXACTLY i'm doing in LF but i canttt *_*! lol. i don wanna be fired or sued or jailed or tat sorta thing! but i'll just say, work is really AWESOME, its EXCITING, its really quite extraordinary.
Go eat shit, m.s.! huahuahua!

xD ok, so basically we just learn stuff, then we get assigned animation to do, then we just have a ton of fun, and then we animate and animate and animate, and eat icecream or fruits or wadever's in the pantry tat day :D hurhur. AWESOME.

i'm so glad i'm not some clerk or something. who'd be excited abt typing all day?! but when u're moving stuff all day, u're making some trooper aliveee, NOW THAT'S AWESOME EXCITING. ok, so my vocab is limited but u get the idea. haha.

so don't make me break my contract, stop askin me stuff =x! i tend to ramble so i nv know what i'm goin to say! (-rereads wad i just typed just in case i said something i shldn't have-)

wells, toy & comic convention yesterday at suntec was pretty awesome for all its mini sculptures and toys :D and i've started to really fall in love with starwars lego toys. i think it's this thing about working there that i've started to get into this starwars madness phase. maybe i'll get a darthmaul lego keychain with my first pay! huahua. they have some pretty cool ones at Simply Toys at Suntec.

here's darth maul on his speeder! :D

okay, so here's some er, Q&A stuff that i have to do cos dear Mirah asked me to. so, okay. (: i shld stop rambling.

1] What's your favorite anime at the present time?

Erm i haven't watched any in a long time, but peace maker was good when i saw it a few yrs ago (:

2] Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?

FLY ! and to be able to do super animation at lightning speed and eat a lot and never grow fat! :D

3] How do you think about yourself?

I'm not exactly what my face says i am. i'm a little louder, a little geekier, a little sweeter, and much more short tempered than wad mr face says i am.

4] Where is the place that you want to go the most?

it's between greece and japan and prague.

5] If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

hmm...to be married happily ever after and to be a character animator at lucasfilm/blueskies/dreamworks/pixar till old age then go to heaven where there's really awesome bar chor mee & mango smoothie when i die. yes, I have ridiculously detailed dreams.

6] Do you have a crush now?

Yes! It's Obi-wan! He's so cool when he says "So uncivilized." in ep III. lol!

7] What are you afraid to lose the most now?

Probably my family, friends and then my job.

8] If you win $1 million, what would you do?

I would...buy us a new house so i can have my own room and not have to share with my brother, then buy an ipod and a macbook and some clothes and buy everyone i love a nice dinner.

9] If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

Not before he does!

10] List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

Mirah is not afraid to laugh really loud and is not afraid to be different and always gives me a mega watt smile (:

11] Which type of person do you hate the most?

Lazy ppl, liars, hypocrites in general.

12] What is your ambition?

to be a Kickass christian animator.

13] If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

Point it out nicely, please (:

14] What do you think is the most important in your life?

To love God & the ppl ard and to try your darn hardest at everything you do.

15] Are you a shopaholic or not?

why, YES. what a silly question. HAHA.

16] What is the thing that you really want now?

To continue working in the same company nx yr! and the nx and nx and nx etc ...

17] Why does it hurt when you punch someone?

Because humans are supposed to use their brains to fight and not their fists.
Fist = ape; brain = human.

18] Is there anything that you have done which you regret?

Don't regret, apologize and learn.

19] Are you hungry right now?

For some salt and vinegar chips, yes! :D

20] Do you think that this survey is totally useless?

Absolutely! haha.

mini-wok noodles in a small corner of outram park

2008-06-18T22:06:00.006+08:00

mini-wok noodles in a small corner of outram park

a glimpse of my evening yesterday (: .

zoo with sq.

2008-06-15T17:49:00.007+08:00

(very humid) zoo!

hurhur. you'd think i'd have had enough of the zoo from all the drawing trips there, but nah. Animals are just like us, they change.

so cos sq had free tickets cos he's a blood donor, we got to go in for freeee! :D and this time i caught the animal shows! something i never got to do on drawing trips. I won't upload much of my photographs, just a few of those worth a mention.

like the butterflies in the fragile forest!!! my goodness, they're so tame. they land all over you and you can even coax them onto your finger, which we did.
and it was very rewarding cos i got to take this picture!

(please do double-click to see clearly!!!)
look at its eyes 0_O my goodness. there are like flower patterns in there!
and it's really ticklish having it stand on your finger cos it keeps using its 'tongue', which is the long thing you see sticking out between its eyes to tickle you.

i think it's mistaken that we're sweet. or maybe it likes salty o_o.
which reminds me, it's the first time i drank Pocari Sweat ytd. i always had the thought that it mite be salty (must be the horrible naming) so i nv really dared. well, i declare it safe to drink, it tastes just like h-two-o.

and this fantastic lemur which gamely posed for us and let us stroke him.

the white tigers were majestic as usual, lazily swinging their huge paws ard as they walked, shoulder blades arched and muscles rippling *_* you can feel the POWER radiating out of them.

and the hippos! looking all zen and cool while we were all perspiring in the extreme humidity behind their glass panels.

and hahaha. this monkey. he tried to snatch our entire plastic bag of breadtalk bread from sq! hahaha. i wont forget how he just sprung out and ran to us and forcefully grabbed our bag.
here he's trying to show us where to go (: so small so cute and so dangerous. lol.

:D and mega thanks to sq for running all the way to cheers to get me a new pair of slippers after my faithful leather ones just snapped and died.

Dear leather slippers, you have served me well for 3+ yrs, so i guess it really was time i laid you to rest in the zoo's dustbin.
Goodbye leather slippers :( ...

... >:D hello brand new slippers. now i need (not just want) to go shopping. HURHUR.

ollie the sith lord

2008-06-13T21:56:00.005+08:00

LINK TO UPDATE ON ART BLOG (:

Profile : Ollie the Sith Lord
Objective: Run, jump, and slash the invisible man in half.

so, i finally got off my lazy ass and did some animation, though its only one afternoon's work...but i promise to spend more afternoons usefully *_*

alright then, I'd appreciate some useful critique please ! (:
the video comes off quite small so i apologize to any strained eyes in advance.

tumblr is <3

2008-06-09T16:40:00.005+08:00

I FOUND IT.

HOHOHO. i've been delaying for a long long long time regarding setting up a sketch/art blog. because i just don't feel blogger or wordpress is really up to it.

THEN I FOUND IT TODAY. :D :D :D as i was browsing ard artist's blogs as usual, i found the perfect host.

so here it is, finally. MY ART BLOG :D.

it's simple, it's clean and white and pristine, it's easy to customize without clearing out the shit from all the free (but often bug infested) blogskins,
it's not as unfriendly as wordpress to us animators (though i hear from web ppl it really is pretty awesome), it's not as fugly as livejournal,
and you can just grab quotes and conversations and publish them as a post easily, and it's just pure yayness.

after much thoughtful thinking and browsing :D finally.
i love you tumblr.com.
i guess blogger will have to take a backseat for now. hurhur. henceforth, all artworks will be posted there :D and since it's gonna be clean and pristine and heavenly, only links to art related websites will be up there, links to other blogs are no-can-dos :D

do pop by :D !

drawing day!

2008-06-07T22:56:00.005+08:00

:DRAWING :DAY !!!

YES it is ! It's drawing day today! :D SO DUMP EVERYTHING AND DRAWWW.
i decided to compile someee of my nicer sketches from my brand new sketchbook! :D i love new books.

image one is done today, from online photographs,
image two is from thursday, from life.
done with my trusty uniball signo 0.28 pen ! no clean up in PS, only leveling.
feel free to critique (though i know they aren't that great (: )

cutest brunch.

2008-06-06T16:21:00.007+08:00

today i woke up to my cutest brunch this year!

hehe, how cute is that! little foxes swimming ard my miso soup instant mee (: (: (:

it all started ytd when shi han and i went down to clarke quay for some Meidi-Ya, figuring that since we can't go to Japan, the least we cld do is shop for some japanese snacks. I was whining abt how my lunches are always sad boring maggi mee, so he was being a real pie, and bought this for me and secretly stuffed it into my bag :D.

Thank youuuu shi han :D !

did some drawings by the river, and later at vivo, but i'm too lazy to compile, so i'll post it up another day.

btw, Liang Court's Kinokuniya has a real good bargain alley *_* sh managed to find a Burne Hogarth's dynamic anatomy goin for just $20 and some Moleskins goin for just $5! sweet, so do check it out.

Wednesday was spent with qy (we forgot to take pictures again), and as usual i have nthin to show for it except some real good buys! haha. i must forbid myself from even entering shopping malls. it's gonna be the death of me if i don't.

-rolls ard on my broke ass-

i had a dream - publish

2008-05-30T15:30:00.000+08:00

i had a dream.

Priscilla Ahn - Dream

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park,
I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie.
I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Darth Maul on my KFC Family Tub

2008-05-26T19:18:00.010+08:00

KFC :)!

the night before yesterday, i took out my bible to do my quiet time and the first thing i read was this, which had me chuckling:

"Praise be to the Lord my Rock,
who trains my hands for war,
my fingers for battle."
- Psalm 144:1

i say amen to that for us mouse-clicking digital artists! haha !!
anyway, i'm glad i waited for this, though not intentionally of cos, ha. (: thank God for everything !!! i start work on june 23, so quick! book me while you can and while i'm still in my right mind !

well i was surfing ard, trying to figure out what i've gotten myself into, and whether i'll actually burn myself while zapping out my light saber, when i saw him.
YAYEE, i'm glad he's in clone wars!

hohoho, i present the coolest (and possibly hardest to animate),
GENERAL GRIEVOUS !!!

how cool is that !!! :D he and darth maul are my favorites.
speaking of which, i used to rmb Star Wars as Darth Maul staring virulently at me from my big KFC Family tub. This yr, it's gonna be a whole new thing (:

sentosa like i remember it in my sec sch days.

2008-05-20T17:20:00.015+08:00

sentosa like i remember it in my sec sch days.

ytd was an awesome superb great day :D!

went to sentosa with my girls and boys and ran like i've nv ran in 2 yrs. haha!
dumped our bags underneath a coconut tree at Siloso beach and started our game of captain's ball, xD how nolstalgic !!! !!!

we played for quite a while till we cldn't stand the hot sand anymore, then went for a soak and water captain's ball which didn't go very well.

i don't know why kailiang is looking at clarence that way. very creepy =x lol !

you'd think small eyes let less light in - apparently not, in qy's case! haha x)

proof that i'm as tall as aud ! (you do not know that the seabed is slanted)

this is definitely the picture of the year (: (: (:

and awww, kl and nicholas <3, sharing a pink bunny umbrella

walking from siloso to palawan beach for lunch.
clarence looks a bit like a monkey =x?

volleyyyballll !!! we have pictures of this cos i sat this one out :( i almost always sprain my thumb each time i play. no pics of captain ball :(

and i love jiesheng's pose on the top pic, left side. key pose!

HAHA, SHI QI !!!

so after lunch, after volleyball, after frisbee, we had yet another round of captain's ballll !!! run run run run tirrrreeed la. haha. but it was crazy fun :D i want to time travel back to ytd again!

time to go home :(

oh and here's qy um-chio-ing like she always does, trying to pretend she doesn't love me.

and this is the picture that defines qiu yi. the ... in the bg is perfect. lol.
(disclaimer: not photoshopped)

so, even though i burnt my soles on the boiling sand, scraped my knees diving ard for the ball, and trudged home tired like pfft, ytd was the best sunshiney day of the year yet !!!!!! :) :D :)

phuuueeeyyy.

2008-04-28T21:25:00.011+08:00

late nights after a worthy day of mouse clicking.

i was very happily imagining my online buys and were dying to try them on. but i couldn't, so.

yayyy, all my still un-purchased but order-made online buys!!! (: (: (:
recently i've gone shoppin on US sites via qy's friend who organizes all these sprees (whom i call my imaginary friend).
a spree is basically like all orders are made through her so we'll get dirt cheap shipping rates cos its divided by so many people xD !

i've never seen her but i think i love her already (: (: (:
and i really dislike MS.

i'm cute no more.

2008-04-23T17:50:00.006+08:00

it's a wednesday already?!

today i tried to draw something cute but what came out was that. old and vintage-y in a collared baggy shirt. how fitting. i'm cute no more. Inside wants out, according to John Mayer!

OH, and i had a very fun dream this morning.
i dreamt i was a MAGE goin to war! and i had a very shiny black staff.
very cool (: (: (:
then i went to find my sportshoes. i tot war mah, must wear comfy.
but i couldn't find them !!! :(

then i remembered that my sport shoes died during my napha test and i threw them away. so i wore my sneakers instead.
before e war started, they gave us custard buns with lots of sugar sprinkled over to eat. and after waking up, i realized how silly i am to wear sneakers to war.
oh well, random.

& i'm sorry for not talkin anymore. but i'm sure you'll love me if you know me (: ha! i'll love you too.

you don't say.

2008-04-21T22:20:00.004+08:00

you don't say.

(about the only half an hr of my day i spent usefully)

gahhh. i'm feelin a little...lost.
on one hand, i don't believe i can't find an animation job.
on the other, i duno *_* am i what others put me up to be?

my mum says i'm picky and some others say i'm better at other stuff.
i'm confused and i'm bummed and i'm home all day and i have no money !!!!

-goes on a crazy rampage- :(
and this is not just the monday blues.

dkny in taiwan.

2008-04-18T21:37:00.005+08:00

nice (: !

[edit] i added a mini compilation of my barely there sketches from spare time in church last sunday. and i can't tell you again how much i love the dkny poster below. DOUBLE CLICK for a proper view yea! :D [/edit]

hats.

2008-04-14T21:51:00.007+08:00

HAHA, cynicism & innocence!

fantastic stuff. lol !!!

ooh...my own room will definitely help. lol.

...like doughnuts *_* !

another great saturday with sh! (: hat trying at spotlight & definately, maybe.
not bad a show, quite differently told than all the other love stories, and it's neither overly dramatic or weepy (: just the right touch of emotions, i'd say.

i am demure and ladylike...

............I AM NOT!
in fact, i think jesters & harlequin costumes are very cool! i was just telling zal i'd be a catwoman-harlequin-animator if i could go to a costume party. somebody hurry up and organize one so i can whip someone. HURHUR!

ROARRRR GIVE ME SOME MONEY

ciao, amigos!

MADA goin off for 3 weeks :( !

2008-04-08T19:00:00.006+08:00

mada don't leave :(

to appease mada cos she's jealous shi han got a mention for just one date with me, here are pictures from saturday :D !
it was our dear zal's birthday x) !
and as tradition has it, as art students, birthday person gets ...an art book! hahaha. i think i got an artbook for every birthday since i entered poly.
we love you zal (: (: (: thanks for being a great friend and a super project mate!
-puts on our 3dollar safety helmet and salutes!-

for dinner, we had super yum waraku!

then we chilled ard clarke quay, and talking about clarke quay, i had my virgin clubbin experience with mada, eli, harold n kenneth on weds!!!
woohoo............................not high -_-.
i tell you, we need more alcohol. i nv experienced the famed 'high' of clubbing after 4 jugs divided by 5 ppl. not to mention i was damn freaking thirsty like 3/4 of the time. i kept guzzling water from e tap lol. damn bouncers don't lemme bring water in *_*.

anyhoo, it's not bad la xD something different from your usual movie dinner chitchat session. if you wanna loosen up your collar, clubbing is the way to go!!!
and nope, nobody touched my butt or even my hand cos our very manly kenneth helped us ward off evil ppl! :D yay to kenneth!

i want to go again. PARTYYY!!!

kt tunstall

2008-04-03T21:57:00.006+08:00

kt tunstall.

i want to go for her concert :(
and wow :D girl muscles!
& i like how nicely the video fits in my div tag x) hooray!

Last Call

2008-04-01T16:58:00.012+08:00

these days.

these days, I have been waiting.
Not for the world to change but really, so simply.
I ask, for just simple emails. But nope, no one will spare the effort to reply.
Or they simply task me things that, I can't do. Won't do. Adviced not to do.

The extra words on pieces of paper that the school gave me as steps to be a little taller than the rest aren't working because they forgot that I was much shorter than everyone else to begin with.

here's some of the better sketches on the trains from my unpolished training-lacking lazy hand:

and today i started reading another book by Tim Powers.
It's called Last Call.
Not as riveting as his other books, but I still love how he teases you with quotes at every chapter. Like he dares you to guess his twisting plot.

And upside down in air were towers
Tolling reminiscent bells, that kept the hours
And voices singing out of empty cisterns and
exhausted wells.
- T.S. ELIOT, The Waste Land

You who were with me in the ships at Mylae!
That corpse you planted last year in your garden,
Has it begun to sprout? Will it bloom this year?
- T.S. ELIOT, The Waste Land

Hopes die, and their tombs are for token
That the grief as the joy of them ends
Ere time that breaks all men has broken
The faith between friends.
- ALGERNON CHARLES SWINBURNE,
Dedication

You know, my Friends, how long since in my House
For a new Marriage did I make Carouse:
Divorced old barren Reason from my Bed,
And took the Daughter of the Vine to Spouse.
- The Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam,
EDWARD J. FITGERALD translation

sketching on the train is not always good for your heart. hahaha.

OHOH, sorry for the long long post :D but i must say a big big mega thank you to SHI HAN for a super saturday!!!

:D great cheap dimsum, great arcade games and great patience to play pool with me. haha! holding onto vibrating guns and vibrating steering wheels and cue sticks for hours...made my muscles sore.
this is what animators call exercising. hell yea. lol.

today.

2008-03-18T20:14:00.005+08:00

today.

today i had an interview at the far-off land of the Legend of The Eunos.

today i ate bk-subway-first-time-raisin-cookie with shi qi.

today i got a pink dragonfly that really stands on the tip of my fingers.
and handphone. and anywhere else for that matter.

today i got a fedex box with a pretty notebook and a giant poster and many forms to fill.

today i decided to get facebook because the fedex box asked me to.

today i had delifrance chicken pie at half price and on top of that had a nice chat by the ice skating rink with qiu yi & hui zhen.

today i laughed and today i'm not so lost.

today i'm satisfied (:

taiwan! Naruwan!

2008-03-17T13:43:00.006+08:00

hello alll :D!

i'm back from taiwan! It was an interesting trip, although i didnt really enjoy the first 2 days cos it just felt oddly surreal. it's like one minute we're wrapping up Fusion 2008 (aka, officially graduating) , and -blink-
WHAT, I'M IN TAIWAN ALREADY?!

i kept thinking of what i should do next, is there something i haven't done, forgot to bring? and shit, was my heart itching to check my mail. turns out i missed a few interviews, one which i didn't want to go to and one which was taken up already :( ah well.

snippets of taiwan (:
beautiful place with tons and tons and tons of mountains. u see one no matter where u go, even if you hide in ur hotel room. seriously.

(DO double click to enlarge to fully enjoy the pictures x)

this was taken at a place called Yehliu, famous for its strange rock formations, one of which looks like a queen's head and it was quite cool really.
the legend goes that He Xian Gu stopped to bath by the sea, and e Sea King was mersmerized by her, tried to grab her, failed, thus sculpted her in remembrance.

here's darling mummy and her cousin's daughter (does tat make her my cousin? i duno, but i'll just call her cousin for convenience's sake). This trip was especially different because it's my first time going on a holiday with my mum's side relatives.
I'd like to think my cantonese and mandarin has improved considerably xD the listening part at the very least.

oh! and the awesome cable car ride. I'd like to fly someday.

sun moon lake! Its really gorgeous. The water is like good jade, cool & translucent green! *_*

rotating sausages~! mmm.

bus ride. I love long bus rides with my music. Stolen was tops on the list (:
ah...graduation. shit, graduation.

love!

grandma's bridge.

wild sakura. according to our guide, these dark pink ones are the wild sakuras and the lighter ones are those planted by the japanese when they occupied taiwan in the past (:

and wow, the most beautiful part of the trip. 九份 (Jiu Fen). It's a little village up in the mountains and has the best fishballs ever. *_*

stall owner in 九份 (: hehe, so cute right

a very chatty old lady. i think she's rich.

pant! up & down the mountains for cherry blossoms!

10 things.

2008-03-01T18:07:00.006+08:00

this started out as a post about my favorite movie posters of all time, then i read mada's blog then the post got distracted so i merged them.
so here goes :D
(break from doing work -iamnotguilty-)

10 REALLY RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

1. I am absolutely fascinated by dinosaurs - as a kid, i had dinosaur bedsheets, many many dinosaur books, stole my brother's dinosaur toys & have watched Jurassic park at least 10 times already.

2. I don't eat beans or any of its direct products in which the taste still lingers. Meaning no soya bean drink or red bean dessert. eew.

3. I...have constipation. o_o

4. I talk to Shi Han about poop ^^ a lot.

5. I absolutely can't stand big words. My hand phone font size is always small.

6. I have to look at new cloths at least 3 times a week. That means 'window shopping' online if i'm stuck home doing work.

7. I LOVE BITTERGUORD & LADIES' FINGERS.

8. I really like curly hair on guys xD hehe. secret fetish.

9. I nv wear sleeveless clothes cos i think i'm fat o_o.

10. I worry a lot, then dream about it. I almost always rmb my dreams and 80% of the time they're abt something scary. Oh, and nowadays i keep prayin in my dreams LOL. how odd.

9 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
(i'm thinking besides the standard of understanding, trust, honesty blabla..)

1. Have curly hair xD

2. Be a part of my industry. no, i don't want to talk abt those random splash of colors, yes, i want to talk about how awesome tat 3d character is rigged and textured and animated and how awesome the new Louis Vuitton advertisements are. It'd be really painful if my other half has "no idea what the hell" i'm doing, and can't offer some constructive comments.

talking abt art, i shall share with all of u my favorite movie posters of all time!!!

ah, you can get sick of that handsome actor but nv sick of good composition and graphical sense. yes, movies shld sell stories not actors!
and the Manhattan typography is just lovely. you can SEE Manhattan and not just read Manhattan :D

(back to winning my heart...)
3. Love the movies I love!
like little miss sunshine :D, Jurassic Park, Forrest Gump, Pan's Labyrinth *_* ahh.

4. Pray for me :) in church, not some temple pls. lol.

5. Message me Good Morning msges :D breakfast is the most important meal of the day!

6. Be able to talk to me for hours on end on the phone!

7. Go shopping with me and not appear bored.

8. Hug me (:

9. Will go with me to the national museum and spend almost 4hrs looking at Greek sculptures with me on our anniversary :D heh heh.

8 THINGS I CARRY/WEAR EVERYDAY
1.harddisk
2.hairclip
3. notebook
4. wallet
5.6.7.8. bla, nthing unusual la -_-

7 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME
1. lazy ppl
2. insects
3. lies
4. kids that make a lot of noise
5. spoilt vending machines
6. sticky fingers
7. big words

6 PLACES I'VE VISITED
1. Paris
2. Valenciennes
3. Hong Kong
4. Korea
5. Cairns
6. Batam

5 THINGS I LOVE (things, not people~)
1. the world wide web is just ingenious
2. vintage stuff, like bright red vespas & corded telephones
3. the pen and the pencil
4. notebooks. many many many notebooks.
5. mhan1, mhan2 & more lol.

4 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF
1. Zombies top the list
2. Evil spirits
3. sometimes, the dark. *_* sometimes la.
4. insects

3 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY
1. Drink my coffee
2. Check my gmail
3. Talk on the phone

2 THINGS I'M TRYING NOT TO DO NOW
1. Tell certain ppl how SELFISH they are when their grp members are IN SCHOOL CLEARING UP THE SHIT, and they're home THINKING they've done SO much already. hellloooooo, do ur maths !

2. Dream of Taiwan and forget about portfolio.

1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW
1. God, but preferably if he doesn't burn me up immediately or appear suddenly or appear when its dark or or or ...appear in dreams betta la hor *_*? i duno, i want to but i think it mite be scary. *_*

rise n shine, blessed sunday!

2008-02-17T18:50:00.006+08:00

blessed sunday (:

hello all (: a blessed sunday to you!
was a pretty slow week, didn't get much done, and a lot of my frens turned two-0 this week, there was valentines day bla bla bla.
in short, clara is broke and still has to pay for fusion and posters and printing and wtshit. sigh. so much money needed.

anw, valentines i spent buyin ouch roses for manda and grp to cheer them up but they didn't seem very cheery & who can blame them *_* i totally understand how fyp feels like. met perry in the morning to get e presents, then home sweet home for some not very productive time.
COME ON CLARA CHUA, YOU HAVE VERY LITTLE DAYS LEFT. DO SOMETHING OR YOU'RE SO DEAD.

and my little valentines day breakfast gift to myself.
its called rise and shine! as yummy as it looks (: mmm~!

cny 2008 !!!

2008-02-13T11:13:00.006+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D !!!

not much pictures to upload yet, but i did manage to catch a funny moment with my dad the clown caught in action!
haha, it's our tradition to 'jing cha' (serve tea) to our parents with well wishes before we can get our hong baos, and here's my dad & elder sis :D
she said something like have a blessed new yr and be less short tempered! and my dad gave her tat face. LOL.
super cute, and now you know where i get my temper from! haha.

here's my cousin and i!
Her family is really cute, all their names start with a "D", from their dad all the way down to their dog! :D
she looks more like my sister's sis than i am!

and my paternal gramma and i.
i think when i grow old i'll look like tat...i think i know where i got big head o_o ha! why didn't i get big eyes too :(

my cheeky little cousin 'taking a picture' of me with her toilet roll. lol.

daddy the photographer!...and his very elaborate (and heavy) camera.

FAMILY PICTURE !!! :D another family tradition every new year
hahaha, this is not the one we eventually developed, but i really like this one! a very candid happy shot :D my sis & bro are standing beside me and i bet if i didn't say it, no one wld know cos we look worlds apart. lol. all our characters are worlds apart too, so sometimes i think my parents are quite wonderful for being able to handle the whole spectrum all at once~

gah! i wanted to show everyone how alike my mum and i look...
but for every picture we took, she blinked -_- so this is the best i got.

my family is great :D thank you God for my wonderful family!

moonbabies.

2008-02-01T19:38:00.000+08:00

realisation.

i've come to realize, the hungrier i get, the louder i like my music.
so if you see clara with music blasting off her ears, you better stay far away, cos that's an angry clara.

recently i've been busy handing up assgs, preparing for portfolio review and doing up my website for my coming grad show in abt a 1month's time.
So exuse me please, if i skip all our little social outings *_*

anw, i've recently been hooked to Enchanted OST !!! like when i listen to 'happy working song'...i feel happier working and not out partying like i could. LOL.
i want to go clubbing soon. bad clara is surfacing as the music plays louder and ppl crouch nearer and nearer to the mrt doors way beyond the yellow line.

When the moon hits you eye like a big pizza pie
That's amore

When the world seems to shine like you've had too much wine
That's amore

When the stars make you drool just like a pasta fazool
THAT'S AMORE :D

haha, in more ways than one, love is a lot like food. Necessary, colorful, tasty.

anw, my website is up (: !

tell me if you spot anything u dislike or if something doesn't load!
(not including the 'links' tab which currently is not working cos i haven drew anything for tat page yet x)

all credit goes to Shi Qi for the awesome thumnail pop up thing n embedded video :) :) :)

another song on my list, "War On Sound" by the Moonbabies.
Weird video, just listen if you will.
Hey, it'll be alright.

wad a wonderful line. Hey, it'll be alright.

exasperating.

2008-01-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

YOU, yes, YOU reading this are:

- exasperating
- way toooo whiny
- wayyyy tooooo girllly (stop acting like u're a great tomboy cos the fact is u're not and the whole world can see it except those blinded by your girlish whines)
- and the worst part is you think u're not wad ppl think you are, but ppl think that way because you act like tat 90% of the time, after which you complain to me, "Clara, i'm not like tat. Why do they think this way ? :("

aw. so sad. you act like a _____ n you want ppl to think otherwise.
GROW UP.
NOW.

Un Cafe

2008-01-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

Un Cafe

yayee! i didn't know this was on youtube till i saw it on some blog :D wonderful little clip about coffee that made it to the E-magiciens Festival in France too (:
and some random pictures:

taken wednesday night.

from a long time ago (somewhere in 2007)...
the heat from the hash brown actually burned the paper! 0_o...

SO MANY.

2008-01-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

SO MANY THINGS TO DO

SO MANY THINGS TO THINK ABOUT

SO MANY DECISIONS TO MAKE

SO MANY FORMS TO FILL

SO MANY PAPERS NEEDED

SO MANY THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO

SO MANY THINGS TO REGRET

SO MANY PEOPLE AROUND

SO MANY SO MANY SO MANY.

sorry for e delay. I'll blog about the new yr and 2007 say, maybe come february.

SO MANY MANY MANY.
WOMANY.

2008

2008-01-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

TIGERS ARE DAMN HARD TO DRAW CAN.

and i want to add...
2008 is a very scary year for me.

oh my god.

Paris. Again. Again.

2007-12-08T17:38:00.000+08:00

Second picture post!

waha, yes i shld be doing my work but aw *_* i cldn't resist.
and what better way to tell of my trip to france then a photo of the eiffel.

or a view from the top of the eiffel...

or another view...

and all the lovely ppl who went with me! (minus mysterious Mr Albert)

and finally, a few photos in Valenciennes.
this is the Gaumont movie theatre which they drove us to whenever we had to catch a 3d feature film (yes, with the goggles!) or long talks =x

outside gaumont's revolving doors.

and that is the canteen building where we're given our very sumptuous lunch n dinners xO

p.s. (: many thanks to perry who taught me the secret to panoramic photos! hurhur.

Paris. Again (: (: (:

2007-12-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

bonsoir!

(: christmas is coming, and my trip to France definitely highlighted that. It felt awesome to go again, second time in a year, though i only had one night in Paris, and many in Valenciennes.

It was a very different experience from the last trip, because this time i was there for a friendly competition, in which i took part in my first international festival - (makes me feel especially anti-gravity when i think of it that way);
compared to the other time, in which i went for summer school and explored Paris - no adults involved.

God is really gracious towards me and has heaped bucket loads of blessings onto me although i haven't been doing my quiet time.
I am awful and He is awesome. It really isn't my doing, all these going to France arrangments. I am undeservedly blessed.

So, i shall save the talk to the next time we meet face to face, and leave the photos to do the talking for now.
I seem to have taken much more photos in Paris compared to Valenciennes though. Hurhur. Valenciennes looks a little gloomy, to be honest (:

To my dear audrey, miss talking to you.
And to Shereen, I am sorry :( ! My mad rush in Paris didn't allow me to find what I was supposed to find. Sorry sorry :(!

so, till the next time i get to eat fresh raspberries on the cold spectacular streets of Paris (: ...
i'll be working hard to get there again.

Madame Putli Tutli.

2007-11-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

click here -Madame Putli Tutli.

this is STOP MOTION!
the power of animation !!!

01.11.07, before, and after

2007-11-05T21:09:00.000+08:00

bwa! (: hello world!

thank you all for the presents, i totally love them!
oddly, i got lots of FOOD this yr, chocolates especially! lol. like, hundreds of them (ok, exaggerating.) But like wow :D does tat mean i'm skinny?! :D yes yes YES??? SAY YES!!!

& lovely mother nature decided she wanted to give me something too, but apparently not just cos i was the birthday girl, cos everyone's getting the flu too!

anyhoo, pictures !

this was taken on 29.10.2007 - celebrated Mr. Old Man's birthday :D (aka scary drunkard =x)

then of cos, 01.11.07!
sq looks erm, retarded (no offence o.o but weird picture eh?!)
clarence looks sleepy
and kailiang looks like, omg! my planar sculpture head for assg 1!

unsuccessful take...

proper! (:

~~batteries~~ camera man included

and i have to mention sq and kl were really sweet and bought me flowerss!!! like fresh fresh flowers!

kailiang too shy to be photographed with flowers so i only got his back view :(

and this is harold from last tues, lookin pretty cool in zal's jacket!
-smuggles eli away for secret date while he poses-

ok, so i don't really have a lot of photos to show, seems quite repititive T_T sorry people. someone remind someone to bring a proper camera pls!

and today as i was walking home, i started thinking of how i used to enjoy these long journeys home, quiet - alone with my music - on the train, just thinking of nothing or conjuring up odd ideas to write or draw or talk abt, wadever not - and when i've become this urgh, will i say needy(?) person, soft and unfocused.

i used to love that independence, bristling at the thought of having to wait, having to wait patiently, having to waste time when GOSH. There's so much to be done! So much that CAN be done with all that time! So i have thus decided, old clara is far better off, and i'm going back there (:
like, NOW. no time wasted taking slow steps ya! run run run!
don't walk when you can run!

and don't you go lecturing me abt patience, if you could fly you wouldn't run.

first hari raya!

2007-10-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hari Raya at Zal's house...

yesterday :D! hehe! (full view PLEASE!)

friendly mummy and wonderful cook of the day

had a really great time, but they forced me to watch ~~Happy Feet~~ Dead Silence :( boo. Clara was quite scared, but not as much as she normally wld haf been cos she sat far far away from e comp screen. far far away.

don scream !!! !!!
urgh. so unflattering, but its ok. everyone needs to be ugly once in a while.
:)

Gardenia.

2007-10-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

getting to know me more.

wow, ok, now i'm looking at mandy moore in a different way.
I think this song is gorgeous.
FYI, i don't think she's talking abt the bread Gardenia, LOL.
more like a type of flower x)

Well, I put so much thought into getting ready
Now I know that was the best part
It's so easy to get caught up in what I'm regretting
Forget what I got from a wounded heart

I'm the one who likes Gardenia
I'm the one who likes to make love on the floor
I don't want to hang up the phone yet
It's been good
Getting to know me more

and i used to think the Umbrella song by Rihanna was ridiculous, cos she looks like some porn star prancing ard in barely-there clothes in 'rain' that's prob done in 3d, blah. but when i saw Mandy's cover...let's just say i finally listened to the meaningful lyrics.

8 in the mornings.

2007-10-14T11:08:00.000+08:00

8 in the mornings.

woke up early today, like. EIGHT AM. lol.
but its all worth it cos i got to meet handsome pang pang.
whoa. talk abt change! haha. makes me feel like going army too. hohoho. so we talked for quite a bit then walked him to the station.
I think he's a very nice son, and his future girlfriend will be a very lucky girl! (hear tat, pangpang? :)

and i realize i miss my sec sch friends a lot. they're like the best friends you'll ever make in your life. i mean, now we're all mature and intelligent now..
- or at least we all think this way, when we're a crazy old 19, which is just one number away from from the big TWO-0 :( -
but, who was really there when you were stupid and immature and pimply?
went out with qy and my for dinner on wed, played some swing and wa :D felt like the good ~~old~~ young days. It was wonderful!

sometimes i wish i could be everyone's best friend. that i'd be the person who's always there and the first one you'd call. but that's stupid, so maybe i'm still young after all.

and i have my superficial days. Days when i'd wish i was gorgeously beautiful (maybe i've had too much Serena van der Woodsen ), that i had tons of wonderful clothes to wear and all that silly superficial stuff. Maybe that's why i love popping by Watsons. It's like a cheap therapy session whereby you're half convinced you could be beautiful with all the L'oreal and Revlon and whatever not. I feel it does help a little even though i always walk out empty handed.

Then there's worrying what people think when they read the words you type. Does it matter anyway? Does it bother me so much whether or not they even read? Do they take you seriously for what you write? Do they care that you wear your heart on your sleeve, or will they take more notice; care more?
Are best friends made through words?

I like waking up early, and i'm going to run the ugliness out of me tomorrow. Mark my words.

paint.

2007-10-09T14:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday's and today's doodlings :(
clara seriously needs a leg up on painting.

timetable's more or less confirmed i think. Fridays are free unless we haf NE or something, and all lessons end latest at 3 :D clara is ready for some hard work!
bring it on on on!

and i've seriously been thinking abt dyeing my hair but ah well. decided against it. i'll wait a few months i guess. maybe jan.

went out with sq on sat, and yay! we were both pretty happy i'd say. He got his 'friday workshirt' hurhurhur :p and i got my birthday shoes! as in, presents from my parents x) then mee sua, ji pa, swings :].

hope sch/NS has been good for u :]

LET'S GO JUNGLE !!!

2007-10-04T17:33:00.001+08:00

hello hello :) !
i was free today, so decided it was time to dig out pictures from my hp. many pics have been filtered out because they -ahem- have been ~~secretly~~ discreetly taken in nice notebook shops.

so, starting from the ancient times when i was doing my final year project, in memory of wonderful yummy "Food Junction" which has now been replaced by the evil redlight district "Koufu"

and of course, my good fren ~~roberto~~ lee HOU yeung...

...who is secretly SUPERMAN!!!

personally, i find it impossibly difficult to believe God doesn't exist. There's too much evidence he does.

Pea and Rach in awe of Rach's ingenious umbrella-bday-card! :D

we love shopping.

HURHURHUR, xD don kill me aud. it's just undeniable.

what's left of the suntec gang. haha. NS has stolen all our guys. even when they give e boys back....i bet they're smelly =x LOL.

ok, just kidding :] it's brave and noble to fight for us. very chivalrous :].

anyhoo, i had a great great day ytd! :D
(no pictures as usual, we always forget when it's just both of us)
went down to shihan's place to watch - (yay! x) - heroes again
*...-_- ROAR. DIE, SYLAR, JUST DIE ALREADY. *

and after that we headed down to marine parade, and i ate this speciality dry mee sua, that's really just ba chor mee with mee sua. haha.

THEN THEN THEN -exciting part- we played this very fun arcade game called "LET'S GO JUNGLE!" !!!!

omg. it has to be the most fun arcade game i've played. you sit in this covered 'jeep' for two, all nice and creepily dark, and you play as a couple on a jungle tour all gone wrong.

"Are you sure this tour is alright?!"

"Relax, they're just gonna bring us around and then we'll head back to the city. Trees, temples, rivers, what's there to be afraid of?"

and suddenly, these huuggee giant spiders come running out of the bushes towards the jeep and our tour guide gets eaten up! so the adventure begins and we shoot all these nasty hairy creatures with our machine guns and unlimited amount of bullets (thank god!).

along the way we see another jeep and think they've come to save us, only to realize there are giant green flies attacking them! so we shoot them too, of cos. And its a real mess cos the screen is uber huge so we have to look left and right and up to kill all these monsters!!!

We kill the boss (surprise surprise, it's the giant-est spider of all) and move on to stage 2 where we kill giant maggots in caves and more giant flies while sliding down the in-cave river! Then this guy we met along the way decides that he's in charge here and takes our guns, leaving us only with sling shots!

(think david and goliath, hohoho)

and i was a mighty mighty david alright! :D the sling shots force you to stop and aim before shooting, unlike the machine guns where you can just hold down the trigger and blast away.

In between shooting sprees, the wonderful game designers came up with 'action scenes' whereby you have to jerk your joystick according to the arrows shown, or button spam, etc! It's a wonderful arcade game that tests your reflexes, with jerky camera moves and mini games slotted inbetween.

After you finally die, ( ...:( we didn't get past stage 2 even after 2 lives) the machine calculates you and your partner's compatibility rate! LMAO. Sh and i were staring in wonder why our two main characters where dancing about the screen holding hands, and finally realized why. haha. no doubt motion captured :].

After arcading, we were still pumping adrenaline so decided to play a few rounds of pool :] hopefully i've gotten better!

reached home midnight and oooh, it was a (virtually) bloody good day! :] :] :]

p.s. you can find vids of let's go jungle on youtube! haha.

new layout.

2007-10-02T17:23:00.000+08:00

Weeee.
new layout! (sq you better take a look! lol.)

it's optimized for firefox (it seriously sucks in internet explorer), can't seem to get rid of e side scroll in ie.
and because clara is an ass she doesn't care abt ppl who have small screens and thus designs her layout according to her own screen size.
hohoho.

i think it's a little cluttered and messy? but ah well. tell me if something in this layout really bothers you. i spent like one quarter of my time getting the flash box font color right. lol. sometimes i think i don't delegate my time properly, quoting Dr. Richard Webber.

Grey's is getting...draggy?

its a friday night, ass.

2007-09-21T21:04:00.000+08:00

WHERE IS EVERYONE ?!

Hello?! it's a friday night, and young friendly beautiful clara (in a hot baggy old sch tshirt and pe shorts with hair all tossed back with sexy glit hairband) is...wth? in front of her comp?!

she has tried drawing, which only resulted in doleful foreign affairs;
tried painting, which also resulted in horrid spawns.
Mr Boredom thus tasked her with the exciting adventure of changing msn fonts every sentence.

now, there has to be something really wrong here.
her mum and dad, obviously beyond her youthful sparkling years, are out on a romantic date eating scrumptious seafood as she rumbles on aimlessly.

her sister, boyfriend-less, is out every night, on shopping sprees whereby the source of income is imminent.

her brother, not even a tender 16, and with his o'levels chugging towards him like a mosquito to my yummilicious blood, is also out and partying.

so wad exactly am i doing at home? why, woefully dreaming of more episodes of Heroes to watch and why, changing fonts of cos.

i am so bloody bored and grumpy with that pencil and a hand that might very well be a lousy exasperating expatriate then my own that i swear i'm going to scold someone soon.

aud's come to my rescue. bye, at last.

holidays rock.

2007-09-11T21:54:00.000+08:00

wow.
i've been up to a lot of stuff recently!
sadly, almost none of it concerns proper work to get clara into the well-oiled work machine she wishes to be.
so that's 4 weeks of holidays gone. i threw it out like some melted chocolate in my pocket when i cld have made fondue out of it or something :S.

first week of hols, major 'event' was Safety@Work presentation at Giraffe cafe near the Istana. Ba, we didn't win but we did take fun pics :D

team hesitant fishbone and mr jacques once again :] you have no idea how much i miss school. then again, i'm in no hurry to get back cos it just means i'm closer to graduation and closer to getting a job?!

find me. hurhur.

2nd week! Dinner with Miss Grace at spizza, dessert at Cordruoy Cafe in Vivo and after that, sleepover at Perry's with zal, mada, shihan, and of cos perrymerry. BAND OF BROTHERS marathon session!!! rawr. war is a bad bad thing.

sleepovers with good people are not x)

breakfast at delifrance the next day.

hardly slept 3 hrs the night before but i found bubbling energy within me to go shihan's to watch grey's after breakfast. hurhur x) it's something called the holiday bug, i feel.
can keep you up for days.

3rd week of hols.
More movies (5 movies in 3 weeks, woohoo! A record for me),
more Grey's, more Heroes, more slacker beanbag clara. :)

Bus ride home from 881 at West Mall with Shi Qi. It's not always you get a bus ride like that.

i need to be more mechanic! Like a machine, like Christina in Grey's! She really reminds me of QY though, hur!
work work work.
no more shopping for Clara Chua ok!

881

2007-09-05T16:48:00.000+08:00

this is my favorite song from 881.

881 is a really good Singapore movie.
Hokkien never sounded so good and neither have all the glitzy dazzling costumes.
881 was silly, heart-warming, ridiculous, and touching all rolled into one.
Qi Yu Wu's voice never sounded so profound yet simple.
And the shots are simple but powerful. I especially love the shot where xiao mu gua leans on the car window & Qi Yu Wu raises his camera up to his eye towards the end.

:] you're alright Mr Royston Tan. very alright. *****

别让他们说

2007-09-04T15:39:00.000+08:00

by przypadek

别让他们说你该知足

只有你知道什么是你的幸福

二十二 - 陶吉吉

dogfight.

2007-08-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

Click HERE
for this awesome 2d, 3d, motion graphics piece o_o
...or even just to hear to some good music.
The notes create the source
They cause a driving force
And the sound that you explore
Through the wires on the floor
And it's a very special thing

OHMYG! did u see that?! did you see that?!
BI PLANES.
I LOVE THEM.
red ones especially. red and black ones especially especially :D
any show with biplanes i'll watch! unless its horror, ha.

so, saturday i woke up and the air never smelt so sweet since I was back in Singapore. That feeling of argh, squeamish internship - over and done with without my spraining my ankle, ha! bliss.
1. watched the premier of Ratatouille (all i can say is, the animation is ABSOLUTELY FLAWLESS.)
2. then went to watch fireworrrrkkksss!

erm, i actually do have a lot of things to say.
yes, intelligent things.

but i think i lost them on my way between getting my heel stepped on, picking up more vanity and belching virtual disgust at the evidence in my inbox of how these working adults try to be politically correct only in front of other workin adults.
I'm sorry, but out of the office, it's my way or the highway.

-smiles as i should to be politically correct-

so. till i get my words back.

2007-08-22T12:12:00.001+08:00

one more reason to hate iap.
-updates reason 1001-

working adult life.

2007-08-12T11:06:00.000+08:00

HAHA.

gosh.
i'm sorry if i have nothing intelligent to say these days.
all i can think abt is just to get through this one more week of IAP and i'm a free (wo)man.
frreeeee i say.

this trailer of sorts of workin adult (did i just call myself that?!) life has really...made me wake up and appreciate school life so much more. i just told mada last night that alright, i'm not gonna pon sch anymore
(ok, i lie =x...maybe just those where i don learn anything)
and that i'm gonna enjoy every slogging hot rainy dry cold day i spend in sch!!!

because very soon it's all gonna end and after that it's the start of having to answer up to that rather scary guy up there (no, not God, earth level).

i mean, in school, you only have yourself to answer to. the worst that'll happen is that you beat yourself up - which is really not that bad.
it's when you're givin a task and right away you have that heavy sinking feeling that
God, i don't think i can do this well
and the you're dealing with the company's reputation here that >oops.
every single mouse click feels like it's being watched because it carries that heavy bag of things we call responsibility.

mmm :S maybe i think too much.
i know i'm not a lazy fart most of the time =x and i will do my work properly. but i just don't like the feeling of going to work afraid of what they're going to throw at you next.

i was half tempted to ask pea if it was possible for an internship at IFS, but i decided i want to see what it's like being thrown out into the open and if i'd do fine.
so far i've converted vcds/dvds into dv tapes and vice versa, digitized dv tapes, learnt how to connect all those machines tgt with their thousand wires, burnt tons of dvds, wiped cupboards clean, take out the rubbish everyday, did some web stuff in flash and illustrator, searched for a thousand stock photos, roto-ed stuff....and roto-ed stuff.

what in the world should i show for my presentation? :S

and because i find the boss quite scary really, i was so dreadful of work i kept asking sh if i cld sprain my ankle for 2 weeks. and i was quite serious abt it. i just wasn't sure how to fall into a drain and sprain my ankle since i've never done it before. so well, since i have just one more week to endure, i don't wish to sprain it anymore. LOL. ok, enough gibberish. who reads stuff like that anyway?!

and when i think abt how dreadful workin life is, i always think of my daddy. :( he's having it so much worse and he can't even count down to when it all stops, like i do.
talk about money and talk about love.

happy 42nd bday singapore!

2007-08-09T17:15:00.000+08:00

wee wee!

happy national day ppl! :) i have time today so....
more pictures!...of Paris.
lol. i'm sorry. don't look if it makes you itch.
(i still love you Singapore.)

i thought this was such a beautiful beautiful pic. when i took the pic i rmb thinking, "This has to be from a movie o_o." No photoshop!

looking up the eiffel.

sunset at a tram stop.

another pic of paris' pretty roofs *_* i have lots of pics of roofs and traffic lights. fetish.

and they say the grass is always greener on the other side.

summer sch ppl outside of the chamber of commerce.

eat! :D (in the gobelins canteen)

flower power

our goal.

finally a group pic. at the eiffel! (pic courtesy of ricardo)

rawr. at the lourve.

keep walking! haha.

ooooo!!! i must say i must say, i was sooo excited when i saw this!!!

It's a play that Robert Massin (i did research on him for web design!) converted into graphics and text.
and cos he didn't have photoshop last time, he actually used CONDOMS to warp text and convey emotion!!!
i strongly recommend that you read up on him esp for designers and IM ppl :D his composition and typography is fantastic. And that's his work on the door of the theatre!
It's in a little street near Notre Dam :D
BWWAAAAAA :D :D :D Paris is bursting with culture and art. I LOVE IT.

and yes, i still love you Singapore. haha :]
its just a...different feeling.
something like the comfort of your old smelly bolster compared to the fresh soapy niceness & warmth of a new comforter. hmm, ok. maybe it's just me.

i rmb my dad used to tell me how German and Japanese cars are different.
Japanese cars are like mistresses, you really love them and get all excited abt them for a while, but in the end, its the German car (your wife) that you go back to because they're stable and their beauty is everlasting.

ok, random. ha!
i will take nice pictures of Singapore soon.
holidays in one week. COME, QUICK!

paris!!!

2007-08-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

hooray! came home early today and my parents have gone somewherewherewhere, so i decided to look thru the thousands (literally) of photos to get some nice ones! no artistic nice composition ones, just ones with my face in it! huahuahua!

carbonara day! at a cafe near our hostel :] :] :]

one of the thousands of statues at the lourve.

at the lourve! its gorgeous. the nx time i'm goin to paris 2 days i'll spend in the lourve *_*!!!

haha :] so happy we cld all mix ard so well!

proudly wearin our Gobelins lanyard!!!

arc de triomphe x)

big chimney o_o

highest spot in paris, and there was a live band playin in the background. songs like Yellow, you're beautiful and hotel california *_* sigh, too beautiful.

Benoit and Matthieu, LOL!

Gobelins level 2, where our workshops are located :]

cheeky italians! lol.

lastday in gobelins - ricardo in the spotlight!

i miss paris!
withdrawal symptoms still...urgh *_*

for now...an inkling.

2007-07-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

[edit] full view pls ! :D [/edit]

for now
an inkling of paris,
and the thousands of pictures we took :)

more to come soon :) when i find Time.
it has been hiding in the office these days.

kungfu fighting in outside Gobelins :]

2007-07-20T21:32:00.000+08:00

gobelins
l'ecole de l'image

guess this says everything. it was taken on the last day of sch (13/07) right outside the sch gates but not everyone's present :) but well... ahem! huahua =x
i was really really happy there :] really really happy.
i'll post more pictures when i get them on sunday.

i have a lot to say but i don't think anyone wld bother reading everything and i don think i have the stamina to type it all out.

words, photos, videos - nothing can justify the beauty of Paris and being there yourself to live there and not just be a tourist :] i think those were and might just be the best 17 days of 2007 for me.

au revoir :]

paris

2007-07-09T19:57:00.000+08:00

its my 8th day in paris!
how time flies, then again, it ironically feels like ive been here for really long cos i feel really settled and at home.

its 2pm now, i'm in the workshop so i get a comp to blog.
its raining outside in beautiful paris, rain drops pattering a comforting hum on the grey and brown roofs. i'm listening to A Lack of Color and this is the perfect feeling. i'm totally in love with this place and i wonder how i'm going to cope getting back to warm stuffy singapore and doing stupid masking jobs.

today had a great movement & acting session, followed by a great lunch as usual (opener, main course, dessert, drink) n... ^^ something happy!

we're gonna go to a studio at 3pm to get familiar with their production pipeline.
^^ i think u can tell, i'm really really happy here. All of us except kenneth n liesl dread going back to Spore...

anyhoo, my weekdays typically goes like this:

6.15am - wake up, bath

8am - reach gobelins for workshop

10am to 1pm - lessons

1pm to 2pm - lunch

2pm to 5pm - lessons

5pm to 8pm - workshop

8pm to 10 pm - walk ard paris ^^

update!

2007-07-05T05:53:00.000+08:00

Hello lovelys~!
:D i'm doing great great great hereee! Paris is so crazy beautiful and the days are so long because the sun rises by 6am and only sets at 10.30pm! Aka, at 10.30pm it's like Singapore's 7.30pm. No wonder none of us feel lethargic here, just confused. haha.

Alright, shldn't talk much, using Andrew's laptop. (they've all been nice, maybe ly a little less, hahahah =x)
updated forum! go there to know more!

saturday.

2007-06-23T22:36:00.001+08:00

tot this was a nice pic :]

saturday.

today was such a gorgeous day.
i basically woke up, drank my coffee, ate my brunch and slacked ard, fiddling with some luggage and updating my friendster! hahaha, like finally, ppl tell me :] finally some pictures to share. anyway, this week has been GREAT for me. Absolutely fantastic.

On Monday, i went to the 69th floor of Swissotel for the Autodesk Convention! Think free flow wine/champagne, hotel finger food, exciting demos on Autodesk's compositing software, Flame, and ....Clara in slippers.

Haha, we weren't told abt it till tat morn! so yea =x my colleagues n i flopped down n watched some good compositing :] AND ON WEDNESDAY!!! OH MY GOD.
CG OVERDRIVE 2007
i love it love it. i just really love it.
gagne is great. kyle balda is FANTASTIC.
they made me realllllyy excited.
at times like these, when you hear these testimonals of the stuff they've been through, the stuff they do now, and times when u watch ppl watch your little clip and they smile...those times i really think all i've given up for these are worth it.
of cos sometimes i wonder what it'd be like if...
but no, i've never regretted and i nv will.

now i can't wait to goooooooo paris!!!
saturday is coming. paris is coming xD.
animation, i'm comiiiinnngggg !!!

you're the swimming pool on an august day,
and you're the perfect thing to say.

2007-06-14T21:26:00.000+08:00

i am hard to please.
but i don't care what anybody thinks about that.
(no, i'm not talking about anyone. stop asking so many questions, i'm grumpy.)

so i'm placed there for a reason.
but i still don't like going there anyway.

i'm feeling grumpy today. i think i always get grumpy when, i duno.
i'm just grumpy. nothing's working.

i miss coffee with love.

2007-06-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

i miss coffee with love.

i love this pic, :] taken from fotologue.jp !

but i hate iap.
for reasons i shan't specify, i mean, bla, this is a public blog =x

so sorry people, i haven't been updating for quite some time now, save for some upsetting post which i later took away :] heh.

just for updates, i'm now attached as an intern to this small company called Emoxis LLP. Their reels are impressive.

i still hate iap.
anyhoo, been pretty broke recently, eating outside for lunch everyday is no joke, it's been a strain on my wallet :( esp when sometimes we go for rather ex lunches at shophouses here in chinatown. (yes, tat's where the company is located. do come find me for lunch if you're around e area *_*)
not to mention i have to prepare for my paris trip...

bla, iap :(

anyway! let me blabber abt happy stuff :) today we went for daddy's day celebration at some jap restaurant. nothing fanciful but they haf really yummy noodles! i ate this kway teow lookalike thing in spicy(yum xD !) miso soup, and i saw they had creamy udon soup in the menu! *_* nv seen those before, but they look good xD i'm so going back! :) and prob bring hardworking bmd boy along :) you deserve a good treat pretty! anw, back to the noodles, they were really smooth and sweet, not too flour-y :D
the sushi's not so impressive though, but its ok, i like jap noodles better anw ^^

oh yes yes! and i bought yummy espirit jeans too! haha. not edible but nice and dark and skinny ^^ for only $50 ~! GSS is every girl's dream.

:] i'm lookin forward to paris. G O B E L I N S ! ANIMATION! the city of love :]

my dad is the best ever.

2007-05-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

i love my dad so much.

he works so hard for me.

even though he'll never see this i want to tell the whole world he is the bestest daddy
in the whole wide world, and God has got to be the bestest best daddy for giving me a daddy like my daddy on earth. So let's just say I have the best dads anyone could ever have. He doesn't have to pay for my 1600 euros to some summer programme he doesn't fully understand. Nor does he have to pay for my airfare. It's not his job, not his obligation. But he does it anyway. He puts up with this freaking stupid biased retarded unappreciative boss so he can send me to places to enjoy myself and see the world and so i can just have fun while he slaves away at work everyday. He reaches at 8am and works till 10pm.

And he tells me he's proud of me for getting chosen to go to Paris. Like, no...that's nothing to be very proud of. It's not like i'm making his life any easier. I'm gonna slog my guts out next time to get him whatever car he wants.

:) he likes cars and i like him.
i love him like crazy and i tell you, my daddy's the best ever.

i'm sorry for everything i've done wrong. i'm sorry for making you work so hard. But i love you so.

:( i know.

2007-05-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

i know.

life's been mundane, just going to school like a robot (it's so ironic our project's called roberto's robot and our grp leader looks like roberto *_*). sorry i'm boring :]

i could be stuck here for a thousand years.
i know u'll never see this when i want you to.

NEOprints :D and roses

2007-05-01T09:57:00.000+08:00

wee :] i'm in sch, slept in sch. this feels like home. haha, yea right.
just for memories' sake,... i got a big fat red paper rose ytd :] :] :] thank you!

and sunday was probably the happiest day of the whole final year proj period! i went out with my darlings :D, namely, aud, qy, my & kaili. huahua. i bought wad i had always been eyeing, and took many neoprints :D ! haha, maybe they're wad's keeping me happy now. i can't help myself, i keep lookin at it =x we're all such pretty girls! hehe.

i shall...scan them in! (sch hardware & software is greatttt)

off to bath now.

hard to believe

2007-04-19T19:36:00.000+08:00

"Love is hard to believe, ask any lover.
Life is hard to believe, ask any scientist.
God is hard to believe, ask any believer.
What is your problem with hard to believe?"
~Life of Pi, Yann Martel~

I LOVE BACON.

2007-04-15T17:37:00.000+08:00

I LOVE BACON.

for those who say i'm discriminating T_T....lol, clara can translate! but don mind, neither of my languages are v good =x so it's wad i feel it means...perhaps more than wad it really means =x haha.
its this uber nice chinese song, or at least it's nice cos i like the lyrics. It's by this guy called Evan Tsai, 我可以 (i can). LOL...did i need to translate tat =x?

He sounds like a mix of lee hom and jay chou; apparently jackie wu talent spotted him :]

寄没有地址的信
sending a letter with no address

这样的情绪有种距离
the feeling is so distant

你放着谁的歌曲
whose song are you playing?

是怎样的心情
what are you feeling right now?

能不能说给我听
would you tell me ?

雨下得好安静
the rain falls so quietly

是不是你偷偷在哭泣
is it you secretly crying?

幸福真的不容易
happiness is really not easy

在你的背景有我爱你
from your shadows, i'm loving you

我可以陪你去看星星
i can star-gaze with you

不用再多说明
nothing else needs to be said

我就要和你在一起
i just want to be with you

我不想又再一次和你分离
i don't want to leave you again

我多么想每一次的美丽
how i wish everytime i'm beautiful

是因为你
it's for (or because of) you.
_____________________________________________

last night i went for a bbq at a fren's fren's place which feels weird but oh well :S lol. i just sat there quietly and laughed and played games and ate =x quite a lot. but the stars of e feast were really the roasted melt-in-your-mouth warm marshy marshmallows xD and the spaghetti with olive oil and garlic and BACON. i wish i cld just eat all the bacon *_* but of cos, clara is shy =x thank you, you, for taking the food for me and always sticking ard ytd and walking me to get a taxi :]

but...clara's not so shy in audrey's hse, hehe. i stayed over at her place cos it's so near, and it'd save me tons on taxi fare xD OMG AUDREY WONG I MISSED YOU SO MUCH !!! we haven't chatted like, face to face or even on the phone for more than a month!!!! so we made up for it by chatting till like 4am+ last night xD hehe. i'm a big fat pig so i ate ruffles while we chatted, so yea, do remind me to diet ppl. lol.

:D this morn we crawled out of bed at 10am and ate at e coffeeshop nearby like some old couple x) and of cos had our usual teh ping, bought onions, had lunch (just a 1+ hr aft breakfast! lol, told u i'm getting fat).

then we went to cut our hair tgt!!! i quite like how the hairdreser trimmed it :] exactly wad i was looking for. then we went to ntuc (yes, we're a loving old couple) and bought some greeennn teaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa xD i'm gonna keep my stash in my group's fyp pantry box, hehe. please don't steal.
xD i always resoak my teabag the whole day =x yes, i'm quite the miser with my tea leaves.

i'm so glad.

2007-04-12T20:43:00.000+08:00

xD HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ZAL !!!!!

zal and us at his b'day present presentation (look at my retarded face, omg, lol. )

tues night i went for e bbq at the ogl chalet, which...was ok but i only got to eat one pathetic marshmallow and like a few other stuff and i wasn't full at all *_*.
but we did watch some good cat porn cos there were so many cats there and they were all...yea, haha.

aft tat had a pillow fight and omg, felt so good. LOL. like raaawwwrrrr and let it all out, but oh god o_o always try to avoid zal. LOL. He is full of muscle and when he whacks u, u really just rotate ard the spot cos u feel dizzy *_*

maybe we're different after all

寄没有地址的信

这样的情绪有种距离

你放着谁的歌曲

是怎样的心情

能不能说给我听

雨下得好安静

是不是你偷偷在哭泣

幸福真的不容易

在你的背景有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星

不用再多说明

i don't like it.

2007-04-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

i don't like it.

sometimes i wonder if i'm being over sensitive or u're just being mean.
so i'm glad i got the huge moon to myself tonight so i cld talk to her abt it.
i really thought abt it, and i still can't think of anyone i know that'd really say things like that?
ok, so maybe i'm spoilt...or maybe u didn't realize u were harsh. whatever.

i really tried to do it, i'm certain i got better, and i'm trying to be nice.
i guess it's too close for comfort (or kindness).

gobelins and a maccccbook..._

2007-03-31T19:22:00.000+08:00

look at this sexy thing.

and omg, i want it so bad! lol. really squirming to get it. i really don't like rushing to finish my work before 11pm ( :[ cos e comp is in my parents' room and they refuse to move it out and i haf to skoot once they wanna sleep )

and i really don't like silly viruses and spyware either -_- my sch's pcs are loaded with them, and i think my external harddisk has gone konky cos of it, arrrgh. and after dabbling with Macs for abt 2 yrs now, i think it's safe to say i really like them ^^ they kinda suck with microsoft word and stuff but animation and color wise, its totally aweeesoome. the color especially, is tip-top and it helps that it comes in a v sexy black color.

if i get it i'll upgrade to a 2GB RAM and 200GB HD~! *_* i'm wonderin if e integrated graphics will be a hassle when i'm running Maya....hmm, but wadaheck, i want it anyway, LOL.

AND, they have student prices!!!! and after upgrading it'll cost like, just S$3100? haha, okay, who am i kidding with the just S$3100...oooooh, if only i cld get my hands on it!!!

but it doesn't seem like a very possible thing now that i might be going to Paris for that prestigious Gobelins Summer Programmmmmeee AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH !!!
this 2 week summer school, i want so much more than a macbook :( my parents are of cos willing to pay (though a teeny bit whiney) cos it holds so much knowledge and exposure...and this i'd be totally disappoointed if i can't go :(

it's like, i'm already shortlisted and if i dont' make it through the selection by Gobelins then...:( it's like they bring your hopes up so they can drop it down.
i rmb they called out names of those shortlisted during e briefing for yr 3, but they didn't call out mine. so on the way back up to the lab, i rmb praying, 'oh God, i really want to go. Would you let me be shortlisted please?' ...then i tot, what the, it's too late, they alr announced the shortlisted ppl.
too late for prayers.

but i underestimated my dear God, because right after i exited the lift, joyce called me to tell me that i'm actually shortlisted but they didn't read my name out for some odd reason and got me to go down to learn more abt it!
Hallejulah! :D isn't God great? so anyhoo, anyone and everyone reading this, do rmb to pray for me that i get into this summer programme yea *_* please *_*

i was looking at the mac bookpro, but after reading the reviews i think i'll steer clear of it. lol. Bulging and dying batteries from almost all the reviews?! No thanks...lol.

gobelins and a maccccbook...*_*

and here's a pic from long ago, on a vormitting tuesday when mada and eli squeezed into e same cubicle as me to see if i'm ok. LOL.

i miss you sweeties!

i'm supposed to start animating scene 1 today, but there's a prob with the rig :( so there's not much to do this weekend. i shld do some drawing eh? i've been touching e mouse for so long i've forgotten how to hold e poor pencil :(

in this final yr project, i can safely say i've stepped out of my comfort zone naked. LOL. i've done so much modelling, i might impress perry. hahaha, as if.
I've done sofas, lamps, doors, cushions, cupboards, pencils, highways, books and whatever. lol. maybe if i put them in my portfolio ppl might be impressed with my ultra low poly cube-like things. HAHA :) oh well, i learnt stuff, that's for sure.

it's 4th now, and i just wanna say, sometimes simple affairs work best :) and i'm happy as i am. hopefully it'll work out for a long long time and we'll always get better and we'll always love God

Praise God because life is good :)

i want you to know.

2007-03-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

from
the beautiful w880i sony ericsson video that squirmed right in and stayed in my brain:

i want you to know you make me happy
i want you to know you make me sad
i want you to know you make me happy
you are the best thing that i ever had

-The Freelance Hellraisers

when i'm quiet
you'll see

i guess

2007-03-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

i guess so.

oh oh oh! i forgot to put in this image. hehe.
our very animated french animation teacher, Mr Jacques Deschambeault!

i had an okay day. Nthing fantastic in my days now. Just can't wait to see my dear ppl. i must get everything done by saturday! and make sure i give audrey a big fat hug when she's back. talkin to her online wld be e highlights of my day for the past 2 days. haha! Still, life is good.

Isn't that right, Mr. LG? Hahaha :D

hesitant fishbone

2007-03-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

pictures are UP! :D

we look soooo cool xD

sigh.
i think i might soon suffer from withdrawal symptoms :( i miss my hesitant fishbone ppl very very much. They are much more fun. I have a good Final Year team, but zal, perry, eli & mada are still better than other groupings ever ever ever everrrrr. I guess we have what you call 'mo qi' already :( and at least we're pretty sure what each of us plays in the group.

I'm like, doing nuts now, or at least doing the things i'm worst at, and it just irritates me that i have nthin very important and fun to do and i'm not really contributing. then again, i can't do my own work cos that'd just be selfish. so i sit in sch all day modeling and being pretty much unproductive which i really hate. i feel really happy with myself only after i know i've worked hard today. bla bla bla.

i don't know, but our progress seems pretty slow. lol, i bet if perry was there he'd have gone berserk and finished modeling by today =x.

anw, today when zal came by to gimme a visit, i was smiling like mad cos i miss him feeding me his kneaded erasers =x LOL. i rmb when we were tired out during studio project we'd almost take turns to be a little loony to get everyone else goin. bla bla bla. wish this would hurry and be over.

i'm uber glad there's cheryl around though :D food and a pat on the head. thanks a lot, beautiful! you probably don't know you make me feel much better.

then there's stuff to worry about besides work, like someone who keeps writing emo posts and doesn't ans my questions when i ask if he's ok :( , then there are those who got their A lvl results and are feeling sad and there's nthin useless, busy-doing-duno-wad clara can do, then there's this girl who's flown off to china and won't be back till april 11 and i miss her like crazy cos i realize i haven seen her for almost 2 months now and she's supposed to be my best friend and i just really miss her. how can you not have time for your best friend?!

useless.
I MISS YOU AUDREY WONG PUI WUN AND I MISS YOU YEO QIU YI AND I MISS YOU LIM MEI YIN AND I MISS YOU NG SHI QI AND I MISS YOU PANG SHANG YUAN ANDY AND I MISS YOU FAN KAILI AND I MISS YOU YEO KAILIANG.
omggggg.

grace kelly - by mika

2007-03-11T09:24:00.000+08:00

Grace Kelly - by Mika

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess Im a little bit shy
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me without making me try?

everyone go listen to it on youtube! :D (i can't seem to put it on my blog, as in, it'll be a static video and not the normal embedded youtube video.)

labyrinth.

2007-03-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

write your labyrinth.

Her subterfuge of strength and endurability barely contains moments of weakness.
Many moments.
Like an apocalypse in the midst of good times, sometimes it's really hard to understand and she struggles to grapple with all the incoherent waves. She's seriously lacking congruity.

The word is lacking.

Her ostensible purpose i really do not know, but if really i must say, it's just to type things down.
Bit by bit with her fingertips, like couture, it has no explanation, just spend it away to make herself feel better.
Like vulnerability fleshed out; she can't percieve the world whose undoing has come about faster and with greater voracity than its realization.

By convention, i'll call it _ _ _ _.

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i wanted to upload the pictures of my grp and i wearin our safety helmets and looking so good on presentation day (last thurs) but blogger isn't working well now :( so i'll do it in the next post yea! It's really, truly, a hesitant fishbone production :) :) :)

year 3 has come, oh God o_o .

2007-02-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

year 3 has come, oh God o_o .

wee! it'll be over in 4 days :D !
and then, i'll start on my final year project straight away. LOL. just had our IAP (industral attachment program) briefing ytd. for my course, there are 4 batches of IAP, each lasting 3 months so i got into IAP group 2~.
that means, i'll do my final yr proj first, and aft 3 months of proj work, i'll do my attachment. only after tat do i get my holidays, which is still a short holidays not meant for rest but for portfolio development.

omg, it's taxing, this labor of love. but oh well, love hurts. haha! good thing is, beautiful eli and perry merry are in IAP grp 1, which means we'll have lessons tgt (during the last half of year 3), and my dear shi han is in the group as me! and i've got a pretty good final yr proj grp i think. there's lee yeung, shi han, li xiong and probabaly hui xuan. i don't really know hui xuan though, but that's okay! i'll be nice and friendly, haha.

but. :( the very sad thing is...my mada is gone. we've been tgt for 2 years now! and now, finally...broken up. who dares break up this wonderful couple :( one's short and e other tall, one's fat and the other's skinny. we're perfect tgt i tell you. i'll miss you mada *_* do come find me often ok? ok? okokokokokokok? *_* meow.

then there's the mr macho e vegetarian. ZAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLL *_* my whole sp4 group has been broken up, all seperated over the 4 groupings :( we make a really good team i feel. our strengths all compliment each other :( i'll really miss you guys. 4 more days workin tgt, sleeping tgt on e corridor and tables... :(

i totally love you guys. we make a great team.
we make a great team.