sometimes, i don't know whether i shld live by myself (aka away from my parents) when i'm older. they're forever ever ever ever ever nagging at my messiness. how my papers are in the hall, living room, their room, my room. rarr.

then again, i think they'd be very sad if i moved out, and i think i'd be very sad too, cos that'll mean i'll have to eat outside food *_* and they've been ard since i pooped out of my mum's stomach, so living without them wld be like having a hse without walls. oddly empty. i tot abt all these last night, cos i was really fustrated at them (yes, i even said to my mum, "Ni men hen fan, eh." :( bcos they kept telling me to keep my papers, do this and that bla bla bla when i was very intent on doing my work)

and erm. even aft i said 'ni men hen fan'...my mum was still really nice to me (T_T which is kinda torturing cos it makes me feel very bad)*growlwhinesigh*

on a lighter note, the hse shld be mine for most of the day today!!! xD hur hur. and yea *_* i'm not goin church today. i'm worried abt my cd packaging cos i don't intend to do the normal plastic cd casing...but nobody's replying to where i can print on hard paper *_* so that the cd packaging looks professional. *sigh* i'm doing all these so this studio proj won't be as rushed as the previous one
...which i rmb me and aman still mounting our stuff at 4.59 when we're supposed to put our stuff in the room by 5.00.

oh. last night, i also tot abt God. i tot that 'hey. i don't really know who exactly you are, God.' so i asked Him to show himself to me through pictures. I wonder how He's going to show himself. would it take years for me to notice? for me to hear him say that certain pictures contain him? how? i hope i'm not too blind to see him soon.
i'm so curious and a little lost.