you snooze you lose.

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forgot to write abt eventful tuesday; long long day once again, from 8am-9pm. skipped dinner to rush a bit more of the production bible and not hungry cos i had my faithful pandan mantou to feed me. Alas, after eating tat and drinking some bundung i got all nauseous.

Went and squatted in the toilet a while only to find mada and eli squeezing into the same cubicle to squat with me after a few minutes. Lol. What a laugh! :D i wld really have luffed out loud and hugged them tight if i weren't feeling so bad. So we squatted there for a while, and before they cld get out some ppl came in =x so they obviously didnt dare go out.
I mean, 3 eighteen yr-olds in one small cubicle?!
lol. hilariously suspicious =x

when those two nutters, (sweet nutters :] ), went out, i finally got to sharing with gd o'toilet bowl some of my diet. After lesson i dragged myself to the station and decided to kop Zal's art friend plastic bag...just in case.

wise decision, cos just before sembawang i regurgitated, like, lots of colorful stuff and some unfortunately flew onto poor shi han's jeans *_* so sorrrrrrryyy. It was a reddish stain nonetheless. The whole cabin was positively staring at me so i hurriedly made my way out at sembawang station and hopefully the stench followed after me.

Just wanna say, thanks to all the sweeties, eli, mada, shi han, zal for being v caring :D
esp shi han for sending me even though he wasn't well himself, and for his jeans *_*
you guys are great :D
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i had concept pitch yesterday, this time not only to our module tutor miss gwen, but to 2 independent assessors. Let's just say we're screwed. After we pitched our rather silly alien story, we didn't recieve anything except critiques and no compliments at all. :( o well, in that short period, i tried my best with the storyboards and production bible, and perry with his modeling and timing reel and mada with the very rushed color tests, what else can i say.

that's one A gone for a module, and i haf no confidence in character animation module, none for rentx, and just a small glimmer of hope for drawing. I don't know why i didn't get an A for french, but that's ok :( there's still drawing. there's still drawing. there's still drawing.

From a few modules of confidence in year 1 to just one at the end of year 2 :( how far i've come. Alas, i'm trying not to worry. God is my refuge, my strength. Doubt God would need my help in media design when i get to the pearly gates. urgh. pearls. reminds me of our alien story -_-
anyhoo, i'll definitely push my hardest. Like mr eugene always says, you snooze you lose.

love lead me on, where no one else has gone.
faith keep me strong, love lead me on.

love to rememeber:
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Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?

Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the fields grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?

So do not worry, saying 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'

For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6:25-34

okay.

rewind.
today my sis' bf came over and i looked horrible.
glum, with a shiny big forehead shown off by some horrible tied hair and unbashedly pinned up fringe. what the heck. i don't care anymore. not today. cos today clara feels lousy and her hands suck and her right brain sucks and she cant draw and she cant color and she can't form nice sentences.

my drawing sucks.

my storyboards sucks.

clara sucks.

oh, give me this moment to wallow in self pity :(

my qiu yi is the sweetest!

today, once i went online at abt 10+ am, qiu yi immediately came up to me and said, "omg clara! you were MIA!" and went on to ask if i'd be home today. (since she said i'm MIA i decided to blog, just for you, qy :) so i asked, "why?! you wanna come over?"

haha, silly qy said, " :( why you ask so much. "
haha, then she fessed up tat she was gonna buy snapple and 'ur funny tasting ruffles' to give me *_* cos she said tat since she's so free she wants to do something for busy ppl (she secretly loves me a lot, hehe ^^ )

:D my QIU YI's so nice to me!

and a little update on myself, it's been very busy, assignments upon assignments and more expectation from each assignment with no hope of a holiday for the transition b/w yr 2-3, cos you see, in year 3, i'd either be doing IAP (attachment) or minors while having classes (small projects aimed to help you build up on portfolio), or Final Year Project (fypj).

So, aft my studio project 4, it's supposed to be hols, but it'll only be 2 weeks at most, and no one in their right minds wld spend tat time playin and not plannin for wadeva projects we have ahead because when the deadline draws near, we'd just all be dead. so, i think i'm gonna be pretty much MIA for a pretty long while. Please don't forget me, dears, i miss you all a lot and although i'm happy with wad i'm doing, i sometimes can't help but wonder what it'd be like, working hard and now playin hard with you all. i really miss you, and you ppl are the sweetest ppl to me next to my parents.

we're all gonna grow up so soon, and if not for the line of work i wanna do, i'd trade it all to be in the same sch as you. thank you, thank you! you ppl are the ones i can count on to not change and be nice and innocent and have faith after i've seen all the skeptical, cynical, faithless, i'm-my-own-boss ppl.

thank you so much, qy, u're always so sweet, even if u're doing it secretly :).
and of cos, i can never forget how mei yin and jian nan and yiyi and kailiang gave me my adidas jacket, delivered right to the doorstep, nonetheless. You people are the sweetest :D

And last sat (06/01), i went on a photo taking trip, in hopes of entering a photography competition (think portfolio *_* lol)

chinatown is a very pretty place : below is a street you get to after you go down Ann Siang hill

acting rich...lol.
sunlit!
never tot i'd be able to find a spot with a red brick wall :D! so pretty with those bright green leaves.

thank you qy! clara is very touched.