i miss blogging. haha. i've been so busy the past few days i haven had time to even blog a word.

26th oct:
aud came over to make apple pie for sq's bday. but but but, i was afraid to use aluminium moulds in my microwave so we ditched the idea. in the end we came up with a plan to buy a ready-made plain cheesecake and top it with orea and whipped cream and maltesers :P yummy. so since we were at my hse alredi, i showed her some larc~en~ciel videos and she agrees hyde is hot :P hoho. (p.s this is a summarised-summary. jk complains my entries are loooong.*pouts*)

27th oct:
emergency!!! turns out sq managed to change his bday bbq from the 29th to the 28th, so me and aud had a rush rush morning, meeting up to buy the ingredients and stuff. we went back to my hse to make the cake and during the whole process of making the cake we took some crazy pictures which i'll post up some other day. :p aud looks really nutty in some but she refuses to let me post them up. she threatens to spam me if i do. haha. wad a scary wife. (we agreed its best if we get married cos i'm messy and she's terrrrrriiiiibly neat, she hates mopping floors, while i don mind, and i hate washing dishes, which she don mind. aint we perfect together :) ) some of the photos we took were used to make his card (something like my poogie woogie story)

28th oct:
crazy morning. woke up early to complete the bday card and wrap hz's present (aud's credit), then took a cab down to sq's hse. surprised him at his lift (clara is the ultimate super undercover girl :P i know everything! hoho.) and snapped his shocked expression. haha.hilarious. he ate a slice rite there and he looked as though he didnt know if he shld smile with all tat oreo in his mouth. haha.

aft we sent him up with all the bulky items we went to giant to buy the food. took a cab to west coast(for the bbq). sq alighted at his hse to take some stuff and me and aud were left to carry all the food. woohoo! we felt like super women. haha. i am strong!!! hohoho!

the bbq was not entirely fun, cos sq had a lot of unknown frens and v few ctss ppl came. when i left, :) shereen gave me a hug! i was kinda surprised but aint she sweet :) she's a nice person to hug. haha.

i'll blog the details later. off to dinner!

on channel 5 ytd, the last episode of america's next top model was aired. who's to win? the girl who did well all semester but fumbled in the final exams, or the girl who did fair all semester, but killed the final exams? naima killed the finals and she won. most of life is like tat too i guess. so so so!!! i must must must do well for my studio project for the coming semester. no more C for clara. A for alara.

i just read the new book list. apparently, it came into the email quite some time ago...anyway, two new books on the list! :D adobe photoshop CS2 and illustrator CS2 REVEALED!!! so exciting. hoho. i must master them all :) it helps tat papa is getting us a new comp too. hoho. apparently my bro's tantrum (spoiled rude brat xP) abt our slow comp was a blessing in disguise. i feel so motivated now :) (hopefully its not short-lived. wad the chinese call 'san fen zhong re du')
although the books sound thick and heavy (o_o eek!), i kinda miss holding books. :) haha. nutty. i miss reading lots and lots of words and workin my memory.i must muster all the hardworking-ness in me and do well for the comin semester!!! i must end year one well. get into the specialisation i want!!! pls do remind me of my aim when i get lazy. :)

CHRISTMAS IS JUST ROUND THE CORNER!!!
woooohooo! i can't wait :) just 2 months more. just 2 months. a few days ago i couldnt sleep cos i was thinking about the xmas presents i cld do/buy for ppl xD woo! so excited thinking about them presents tat before i realised it, it was 4am. haha. with no work to do, i think i'm getting insomnia. earliest sleep time is 2.30 am. sigh. assignments and school is good. they make me tired. i have too much unspent energy nowadays. i i mean, how can i be hyper about nthin?

woohoo! i think this month has the record of having the most number of double-entries in a day. all because october is the holidays for me. ha. garh garh. why don't they make jc's ppl holidays same as mine?! sigh.i'm goin broke anyway. i should stay home.

a month or so ago, i stumbled onto a postcard featuring the top 3 works of the 100-word epic challenge organised by the singapore writers festival. (go to www.swf.sg :) ) the works are truly beautiful and my favourite line of all the three works is this : "The true test of love is its passage from the Golden Age of consuming passion to the Silver Age of tarnishing familiarity."
this sentence is so so true! it explains why divorce rates are sky high and couples get bored of each other. how long will we last, i wonder.

what am i waiting for? i don't even know. maybe one day the cheshire cat will tell me.

"Yet the harsh reality of love is ironically a two face deception filled with exhilaration and emptiness at two ends."

...i pine for assignments to do. garh. this holiday-nothingness is getting into me. i have no aim! nothing to strive towards. can't wait for sch to start :) btw, my new bible not only looks good, but smells good! hoho. it has this really nice leather smell, just like when u step into a new car. i feel like i'm addicted to the smell. must take a whiff whenever i'm doin quiet time. :p



Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand it comforts me
From the ends of the earth
To the depths of my heart
May Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory,
may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demands

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

awkward placings.
sometimes you're in a room full of people you know and yet you don't feel right. like, you feel out of place. sometimes i feel that way during _ _ _ _. and no no :) i'm not havin pms or a bad day. haha. just tot of tat awkward feeling and how it makes me uneasy. ... the 2 Ss are forever chortling away and Char is hardly around and i'm not standing on same ground as the youngies. not that they're meanies, but hey. we're jus not on the rite frequency. it does seem ironic to say "thank God it doesn't last too long" too. ba. help me, God!!!

talk about God. hoho!! xD my parents just came home and mummy bought me a new bible!!! xD it's sooo pretty!!! i've always wanted a NIV (new international version) bible cos my youth bible was NCV (new century version) and the words aren't the same as what the pastor reads out so i'm always a tad lost. i also wanted a new bible cos my youth bible is so fat it kills my shoulders when i'm tote-ing it around. eeee!!! x)))) hoho. i love my new bible. it's sooo nice! it has a brown leather bound cover with a button flap to protect the pages from damage. **drool droool** mummy's so smart la. i didnt even specify this was the exact type i wanted, with the button flap, but she knew!!! mummys know everything. x))
i love pretty books. i love my new bible! yay yay!!!

my mummy got a new bible for herself too. whoa. you shld see it. scary. lol. the words are HUMUNGOUS, like, really really giant, cos she insists she's getting old and she needs huge words so that her eyes wont hurt. papa got a giant word one, which is slightly smaller than the mummy's. so cute la, both of them :) so excited over a new bible.
come to think of it...so am i!!! hoho :)

yesterday, i had a 'sayang-competition' with daniel over msn. haha. he calls it the Great NYP Sympathy Challenge. right now we're on par. i will win!!! =_= he said i'm underhanded too. wth la. i rightfully deserve to win. haha. it all started when i complained to him that i'm bored and he showed me this emoticon of one smiley sayang-ing the other smiley. we talked a while then i found a reason to sayang him back, and so started our great war. yes, i realise we're quite nonsensical and clarence said it was the height of boredom =_=. bish.

and i cant believe he doesnt buy presents for his friends. i mush help him kickstart this good habit. lol. :) firstly, sabrina's present! =x i didnt realise till yesterday tat her bday was over!
i duno wad to buy for her too.......hmm. i regretted not makin good frens with a lot of ppl in the past, so now i shld try harder :)
...as for my aim of 7 portraits a week, i've only done one =x terrible.

yesterday, after spending the whole afternoon at my house, i walked audrey to chinese garden mrt station. the sky was bathed golden in the the setting sun, and it really brought out the clear green of the long grass.

pointing at the lovely grass and bushes, aud said: "They look yummy."
wad a cow. lol! she munches as slowly as them too.

aud came over at about 12+. i agreed to walk her back to my hse from macs cos i had no food at home to serve her. wad an embarassment, hoho, so i had to go to ntuc to get something for us. in the end we bought a can of campbell chunky each (YUMMY :p bacon and cheddar bits for me), and a huge bottle of green tea. we stopped midway to my house to play the swing. (again! haha. i just played it with qy on monday. everyone's real motive seems to be the swing and not to visit me. sad.) and then proceeded home to eat our yummy lunches(!) while watching Quill.

Quill is this reeeaallly sweet (fictional)story of a guide dog. the film depicts his life from a newborn till he dies of old age. its not a silly show where the dog speaks...the film is narrated by the daughter of the blind old diabetic man who eventually became Quill's partner. but Quill told his own story through his actions and body language. the way he looked at his master with those biiiiggg wattery eyes and his patience with tat egoistic old man made me melt. I WANT A DOGGY TOOO. wad a sweety pie. MUAHX to all the doggies in the world!!! No wonder all dogs go to heaven.

after Quill i wanted to make some jelly with aud, but in the end, i couldn't find any canned fruits, so we abandoned that thought and played scrabble instead. at the same time i showed aud some do as infinity videos and hooray! they got another well-deserved fan :)

we yakked and yakked till 6, then i walked aud to the mrt station and found out she's a cow.

today... :( there's no one to go swimmin with me. all the jc ppl are busy with their op and stuff, sq is sick and gotta work, aud had her whole nail pulled out, and all the nyp ppl stay so far away from me T_T i think i shall go swimming by myself again today. jus like i did on monday. hoho! its quite nice to swim by myself, come to think of it. it gives me no excuse to stop for a rest or to end my swimmin session early cos my fren nids to go off, and i can bath as long as i like!! haha. qy, kaili and hz always bath sooo fast :) iqbal you shld try it!

pilates sounds good.

aft lookin through all the gorgeous images of the beach at gettyimages.com (kudos to qy for recommending the site :) )...I WANNA GO TO SENTOSA!!! and feel the sand warm under ur toes, to smell the fresh sea breeze, to feel the sun turning your cheeks pink...

I WANNA WANNA WANNA GO TO THE BEACH.
sit in the water and yak the day away, play some good rugby, drink ice cold lemonade, go kayaking!!! i wanna i wanna i wanna ^_^ i shall go swimmin later.

but it's so cloudy nowadays...**grumble grumble**

alrite. i'm a lil too laggy but haha. here are some pretty pictures i took at the zoo during my studio project. i love my lumix~ xD


a love lorn tiger. hoho! so cute, no? reminds me of bards, lookin into the sky thinkin of cheesy lines to romance their lover =x


the predecessor of coffee-shop uncles


sooo sweet no ^_^? i used to have a raccon softtoy called Leo. i didnt come up with the name. it was printed on the collar. :S oddly enuff, the dangling collar had the image of a scorpian on it. like, wads the connection :S ?


pygmy hippos! tats a newborn rite there :) about a month old when i took the photo.

ohoh. this was NOT taken in the zoo. this was ages ago, when we were on our MAGGMEE proj xD hoho. i look like a boy with my hair tied up. aman took this. :)


amanda lookin bored in chinatown. fiona's so much more hardworkin. hoho!

in all my boredom, i decided to sniff my mum's butt. she was sitting on the edge of the bed making a call, so i hugged her from behind, while lying down. and tada~! i sniffed her butt. hoho. i am so nonsensical. when the person on the other end of the line refused to pick up, she mumbled, "Rotten egg..." in chinese (chou ji dan) and leaned on my back, squashing me flat.

me: "Mummy! You're squashing me! Wait you flatten my breasts how?"

mummy: "Ya hor. Alright. For the sake of your breasts i shall spare you."

yesterday, my day started at 7:

i got up early, went with mummy n grandma (popo) for a checkup at the eye centre. my own appointment was postponed. ba.
we spent a long time there, and it felt good tat i was NOT my usual bored self, bcos we hung around that place for about 2 hrs, and i was mostly alone cos mummy had to go with popo into the rooms. i felt unusually high n good-tempered albeit having slept less than 6 hrs. maybe it was the prospect of going on a major shopping spree later? i duno. i'm guessing, cos i'm feeling weird nowadays.

from the eye centre, we took a shuttle out to outram mrt station n walked to chinatown from there. o_o it's surprisingly near. we walked about for grandma's clothes, stopping only to buy those cloud 9 ice lemon tea sweets tat i love so much. they make me think of wei long n xian ming :) !!haha. they used to give me packets of it and i'd finish it off in a day. :) i miss them.

anyway, turns out grandma is as picky abt clothes as i am! hoho! aft she bought a shirt and a pair of pants, we stopped for lunch. bleah. i felt so full but i bought sumthin to eat anyway. beef noodles. and NO. not the normal kind. it was this yellow noodle, the kind for wantan mee, with brown beef sauce. it was so...YUCK. the beef was nthin but fats, and the smell of the beef was overly-overwhelming. i ate up all the vege, 2 spoons of noodles and left the rest there to rot. YUCK. the wheatgrass juice was nthin but sugaredwater too. terrible.

we then sent grandma home, mummy gave her a back rub, then we were off to bugis. it was about 2 by then. i didnt feel like goin to bugis street cos i felt the heat wld ruin my happy mood, so we walked abt bugis junction. turns out there are more than enuff things to shop around there when u're with my mummy when she's loaded. haha! i bought a long-sleeved t, my skorts (!) - skirt on the outside, but hidden shorts on the inside. i will no longer be afraid of strong winds. hoho! - 3 shirts, 2 clips, one 3-quart pants.

mummy appeared to have bought less, but she sure spent more. haha. she bought reallllly pretty pearl earrings and a pearl ring from fie japan.
the earring: it has this dangling pearl in the cup of a rose petal. they use real petals!!! i donno wad they do to make it hard shiny n glittery but it sure looks damn good. haha. she got nice hot pink heels from URS along with other things. mummy was sure in the spending mood ytd.

by 6.30, we were both starved so we gulped down korean chicken bbq real fast and continued walking. seiyu had nthin for us, save for pretty bras... polka dots, graffiti, cows, princesses...u find all sorts of stuff on bras nowadays. hoho!
mummy refused to buy a skirt for me, sayin it's too short. hmm. so we decided our legs need a rest and we headed to eat gelatos (again! haha). this time i tried mint choc and lemon. damn. the lemon is good. sour and lite on my stomach.

:) daddy was a darling and rushed to pick us up although he had a dinner with a fren. reached home at 10.30, so i practically walked the whole day away. hijikata was gorgeous as usual, all coolness and subtle unspoken love and concern for his frens. shannon reminds me of fulle at times, and oh. how i miss fulle. if onli he was in more episodes of the scrapped princess. good things don last v long, i guess.

aft a terribly long bath i lay in bed and tat was when i started feeling ashamed of myself. how i nv appreciate my parents at times. a lot of times. we all accept defiance as a part of growing up, but no. we haf a choice to defy or not. to be rude or not. how many times have i made them worry for me? get angry at me? get upset because of me? then i tot of my grandpa and i know that if they died i would regret every single bad thing i did...or things i did not do for them/to them. it probably breaks their heart when i'm nonchalant to their nagging and when they're trying to talk to me and i don't want to cos i haf work to do. as if tat work is impnt when i go to heaven. even aft i've been so mean and such a bad kid, mummy still loves me so, don mind spending money on me, and papa doesn't stop huggin me just cos i've pushed him away so many times. they ask me wad i want for my bday even before i rmb its comin. i don't think they should treat me so nice. i'm ashamed.

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.

If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today,
beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away

why why why T_T ?!

the picture thingy still don wanna work for me. i have such pretty pictures to show too! i have a lovelorn tiger, the predecessor of ah bengs, orange fishes and a fiery red dragonfly...all the pretty pictures from the zoo. o well. :(

last nite, as i lay in bed thinking about all the things i want, a song that i sang in pri sch came into my mind:

seek ye first the kingdom of God
and his righteousness
then all these things shall be given unto you

it's hard *...*. how do you seek His kingdom? i suppose i could start by loving unlovely ppl. God give me strength, considering i get irritated so easily.

...first sis. wad IS IT WITH HIM?! i've heard so much bad stuff about him. even if i don wanna listen, i can see it with my own eyes. how can he be so nonchalant towards his frens?! doesn't he ever feel lonely? ba. he doesn't seem to care about their feelings, or anyone in the class, for that matter. i've heard he found a job, got sam into it, then ditched him last min, called fiona siao when she meant good, telling him about a job offer, and now he's desperate for a job...and class outings? no. comfort comes first for him. excuse me, but i don't care if i'm brutally honest. he's goin to have to change if he wants ppl to respect him.
...two-faced.

hoooorraaayyy~!!! hoho. clara made her second attempt at makin chocolate ice cream and was successful !!! (:p once again. hoho!) its stunningly simple to make 'ice cream' and i noe many ppl who will =_= me if i tell u how to do it...

anyway :) heee.happiness is to be shared:
just put tons and tons of milo powder into ur cuppa, add a tiny bit of water so that the whole solution is so damn saturated that there are lumps of milo floating about the mixture, and the thing looks n feels like hot chocolate. then, put the whole thing into the freezer, and voila~!! its ready in 2 hrs or less. yummy choco icecream. today i put my milo solution into a metal mould tat i bought for $2 the other day at ntuc :) (note: it's jus ONE mould. not a tray of it) it was sorta impulse buyin, cos i tot of the first icecream i made, and decided i wan a dinosaur imprinted on my second one...:) wad a cute mould.

haha. no wonder i go broke so quickly. i buy all sorts of nonsense. i bought a letter pad at the jap shop at bugis on friday. hee xD it was sooo pretty la!!! it looks like a scrapbook, with all sorts of cute pictures of jelly beans, burgers, little girls and all things sweet and yummy. a good excuse is that i buy all these nonsense for inspiration~....:) hehe.pretty pretty.

on monday, i went to dmd 0502 chalet. hilarious! lol. they booked some oo-loo place that looked like an old-folks home/delinquent sch. it was on the opposite end of pasir ris park too, so we had to cycle to cheers. it was a nice ride, though a little slow, and wilson had me try his lemon and lime bitters drink. DELICIOUS. it has this oldish look, packaged in a glass bottle...and it has got to be the best carbonated drink ever. sour with a v subtle after-taste of bitterness. yum yum!

aft the cycling we went to the playground to climb the big rope pyramid, and played this satellite disk look-a-like, which rotates automatically by momentum. sadly, we had no camera with us, cos it was simply hilarious when we all went tumbling about when the side of the disk we were sitting on went almost vertical. suffered a few scratches and (eek! o.o) mosquito bites, but haha. good fun :)

bbq...was interesting. turns out the guys cldn't start a fire and joanne had to do it. this is the age of women, i tell you. the girls were also the ones to marinate and skew the chicken and stand by the fire to cook and wash up. from my point of view, guys are getting more and more gu niang, afraid to do all the dirty work. goodbye chivalry and manliness, hello power women.

on tuesday, i went shopping with aud and qy!!! xD ~!! bought a b&w astro boy tote bag, and ate yummy gelato. i tried the kiwi and green tea flavour and qy said those are weird flavours. :S where gotttt. yummilicious. they're low fat too! hoho :p good for me.

i managed to borrow 2 Tim Powers books too. YOU GOTTA READ HIS BOOKS. really good action-packed urban fantasy fun. My favourite book of all:
Expiration Date
the book weaves everyday facts into fantasy, and actually makes you wonder if there really are such things in the world. :) mm-mm~!

hmmo. today, i went to ms gail's exhibition, i to eye, and it was located at her hse, somewhere along balestier road. some really oldish-lookin terrace hse complete with those china-town type windows. wad ghost stories are made of, if you ask me =x its a pretty hse, but not something i'd want to live in.

i to eye: an exhibition of the way ms gail sees herself, and the way others percieve her. it was truly...fantastic. she can do tons of styles, from abstract to jaw-dropping realistic, and she uses anything from pills u get at pharmacies to magic markers and oil pastels to draw herself. and her photography skills are...fabulous. her realistic painting looks jus like her photographs too, so. wad can i say. i have a new found respect for her. her works stun me. gorgeous gorgeous!!! i wanna paint and draw like her too. **glomps her painting of a boy and his grandpa**

:( mmm. i wanna upload some photos but the stupid bloggy pic thing isnt workin for me. tml, then. :)

p.s. i'm sorry amanda, for always bein late. muahx~! my kiss of apology for you is imprinted rite here on my blog. i kick my own butt for you. sorry your must-be lover is such a terrible person with time. i think i owe you 10 litres of coke alredi. hoho!

"You seem to have grown chubbier."

T_T....wanna cry alredi la !!! stupid aaron. aaron is this childhood fren of mine, elder bro of adeline. met him and doreen today at the house-warmin party (doreen's). they're both the same age as my sis, and HELL. doesnt he noe how to pls a girl?!! rite. =_= as if he cld care less.BA. **mentally kicks him........and kicks him again** it doesnt help that he looks much better (tall and broad),....but but but! i was just a little girl when he last saw meeeee... meeeeeeee :( stupid aaron. **kicks kicks kicks** i suppose tat cld serve as a v good motivation for me to slim down. :( BA. :( :( :( :( :(

anyway, (grrrrr) aaron told me adeline was workin tats y she wasnt there...and in his words..she has become some ah lian :S. sad. she used to be such a sweet little girl ! she's workin at some boutique at far east, i heard. weell, one person hasn't changed one bit...Doreen! haha! she's still so ...so her. haha. the voice, the face the expressions :)
now i wish i had kept in contact with them...and i wish i had established an even better relationship when we were young.hmm. our relationships go like this: our mothers are all friends who used to work in the same nursing ward. we got to know each other at the annual xmas party at sgh, and since our mummys were such good frens, we had swimmin lessons together, went to chalets together :) i was closest to adeline, actually. haha. so it felt odd at times :( like everyone's around you but you're all alone. not that i blame them, realli. i'm not their age. they were closer to each other. well, not a v good day, i'd say. and i dont dare say i wish adeline were there. eek. o_o i'd be horrified to talk to her if she is really wad aaron said she is like.

everything's a mess now. we don't even noe if we're gonna get seafood. grrr. one thing tat i can't stand about bbq seafood is the cleaning of a squid. its one of the most repulsive things to do in a kitchen.

How To Clean A Squid: (a terrible experience i got last year when my maid went home for a month, and my mum decided it was high time i learnt to be a good wife and know how to work in the kitchen. like eek. as if. i've long since memorised the hotline for pizzas :p )

1.cut out the eyeballs tat are lookin rite at you
2. cut out the ink jet and turn your fingers black
3.dig your fingers into the core of the eeky squid, filled with semi-opaque slime and pull out the plastic-lookin bone
4. use your fingernails to pull out the purplish skin . all of it.

now you're ready to wash the eeky thing with water.
i turned green the moment i smelled the thing, and almost puked at the third step, so my mum decided she was better off without vormit-filled squid and she spared me the torture. i'll never buy squid if i'm a housewife. repulsive.

ba. wad a day.

I WENT OUT YESTERDAY.

haha. aft 4 days of being cooped up at home, i went out! (like, finally...) xD met minfeng n ling hui earlier to get yi xin's and wei hun's presents. got them a bag n skirt respectively. then went to pasta mania to yumyum :p.the whole er mei pai was there for dinner except our mascot (it seems she went off for some wedding dinner) -- random tot: the garlic bread at pastamania is goood!!! -- aft tat we went for neoprints, which oddly seemed to take up quite a lot of time, cos we were all tired aft tat n went to fj to sit and luff ourselves silly. and oooww. my cheeks hurt from luffing so much la~ haha. :) simple happiness.

ooo~!!! rewind rewind. when mf, linghui n i were waiting for the rest to come, we went to kinokuniya. AND THEN I SAW IT. something even more drool-worthy then salty-dog III. it is....

THE ART OF HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE.

T_T'''..... $71.10,,,,,
i have decided. for the month of november, i shall refrain from shopping (don tempt me, aud!!!) and i shall save up to go get it! hmmm. xD. i'm coming, howl!!! (i can hear takuya kimura talkin thru him xD *squeal* ) but howl will haf to wait till november. haha. october is the ultimate shopping month!!! :p yay yay yay! ilovetheholidaysilovetheholidays.

and oops. =x supposed to go with aman to jff today. :( but was so caught up with the whirl of things ytd tat i forgot to msg her. i'm sorry aman!!!
:( i'll make it up to u. with a drink of coke nx time ok? :)
now its finally the start of my hols. phlegm n a blocked nose aint gonna stop me from playin! muahahah. gonna meet adeline tml :) my childhood fren. i haven seen her since pri sch o_o. like whoa. more than 4 yrs. my mum's fren's daughter. we used to have swimming lessons together, go to stay-overs at sentosa together. i wonder if she still looks the same. how's her personality like now? sometimes i wonder how much change is good and if i've changed for the better.

i prefer spaghetti with red sauce now :) yum.

this is unacceptable.

i have been ditched. again. 2 days in a row T_T...
this time it's because aud's younger bro is sick, so she gotta stay home and take care of him. :( i think God don wan me to go out.
i guess i'll just scrapbook my day away :( sad, shopping-deprived scraps.

To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong. - Joseph Chilton Pierce

clara must not whine so much =_=. yada yada. i am bored. where's my fun-packed-everyday-outta-the-house hols if everyone's gonna start ditching me? hurry and get over promos, you jc ppl, so you can go out with meee!!! poor me. even my wobbly fats are bored STIFF. ok. boring me shall show you some excerpts from the newspapers. today, the report on arts features this german guy called Gunther Uecker. he is 75 years old, is bald, and has a beer belly. the reporter, clara chow, says he looks like a jolly gnome in his white overalls. hoho. the description of his appearance makes me wanna luff alredi, but wait till you hear bout the things he does.

He shows the reporter a 1976 photograph of him riding a camel at the Kunstakademie, (o_o like where in the world is that ??!) where he was teaching, and says: "The academics and critics said I was as stupid as a camel, so I decided to show them by coming to work on one. It was hard riding a camel," and he completes that with and impish smile.

hoho. wad a cute guy :) he has noble aspirations too.His 14 works are objects that he has created which tread the line between useful tools and instruments of torture. "What is the difference between daily acts of violence and big acts of terrorism? While the arts can't save man, artistic means can give rise to dialogue, calling upon man to preserve rather than destroy." (o yea!!! i am gonna create long conversations that the world will listen to x)! ha! )

so if all the above has interested you one bit, :) do look at today's Life! page 4. love the arts! and if any non-artyfarty frens of mine don mind goin to exhibitions with me....hehe :p. pls do tell me. there arelots of exhibitions that i can't wait to go to (with someone i know) !!!

:) my anthem for the october hols:

Somebody once asked could I spare some change for gas
I need to get myself away from this place
I said yep what a concept
I could use a little fuel myself
And we could all use a little change
Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming
Fed to the rule and I hit the ground running
Didn't make sense not to live for fun
Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb
So much to do so much to see
So what's wrong with taking the back streets
You'll never know if you don't go
You'll never shine if you don't glow

:( i was supposed to go for the contemporary asian art fair today. it was the last day. it was free, and the works of Japan's greatest (or so the newspaper claims) artist, Yayoi Kusama, dubbed the grand dame of avant-garde art, was included in the fair too. but in the end, fiona didnt wanna come cos she wanted to complete her eternal mana game, and aman had tat time of the month and was too cramped up to come. of cos, clara didnt wanna go alone so she stayed at home. T_T what a way to kick off my month of holidays. at home. grr. and i can't think of any ctss ppl who are interested in art, save for jia hui, but i'm not exactly clse to her. grr. i should make more arty farty frens.

:) on a liter note, i'm v sure tml's gonna be much better!!! wooots!! gonna go shopping with aud daaaarrrrlliiiing. xD muahahaha. i can't get enuff of shoppin. i just got myself a nice pretty yellow mini fluffy skirt. x) gonna look out for bags tml.

o yea. sq insisted i blog this down. haha. so here goes. last monday, i was workin at aman's hse till late, like 11+. so fearing my long trip home alone, i smsed sq to call me. so yakkity yak, we talked till i reached chi garden, and we were still talkin when i was walkin home from the mrt.

thn he asked the strangest question: "Do you smell vanilla?"
i was like :S "Vanilla?"
so i shut my mouth and took a deep breath. OMG. I DO SMELL VANILLA. (note: sq does NOT live within walkin distance of my hse)
by then i was totally freaked alredi and was half-screaming into the phn: "OMG!!! HOW YOU KNOW THAT I CAN SMELL VANILLA??!!"
he calmly replied: "I told you i'm rite beside you."
me: "o_o OMG. SQ!!! DON BLUFF ME!!! TELL ME! TELL ME WHERE ARE YOU? HOW YOU KNOW I CAN SMELL VANILLA?!"
evil sq proceeded to luff his head off at my silliness. in the end he told me tat some factory in jurong produces tat vanilla smell, which is esp strong at nite. he said he could smell it in SP, so he just tried his luck to see if i could smell it too. u shld hear the way he luffed at me =_= terrible.

talkin bout sq, i had a great day with him on friday too!! we went to bugis (tats y i'm so tempted to go shopping again. haha), ate our long awaited burger king meal, watched corpse bride (his treat :p), bought hz and clem's present, and i bought pretty white sandals for sch~!! aft tat we went home and he was bored so he walked me home. we stopped by the swing and xD yay! haha. haven played tat in a long while. good thing i was wearin a long skirt and the area was relatively dim =x o well. i had a great day, sq!!! thank youuuu x3

bugis, i'm comin for u tml~!!! ( once again haha. )

there are soooo many things i wanna do but (!) not sure if i have the time and money to do them all. haha xP! (excuses.)

i wanna go for the Jap film fest!
i wanna go run run run swim swim swim.
i wanna go shopping A LOT :p.
i wanna borrow tons of anime to watch.
i wanna buy pang's present.
i wanna read a good, thick novel.
i wanna make bday cards for hz, clem, sq, pang, xm.
i wanna become best friends with him and Him.
i wanna get my mp3 fixed.
i wanna practice my portrait drawing.
i wanna practice my building drawing.
i wanna get a new pair of specs.
i wanna get a new bed and a table of my own.
hmm...get an easel?
get a tablet?
get a laptop :) ?
get Amazing Arms. haha :p.

i wanna i wanna i wanna. (where will the money come from? lol.)
xD but all in all, whether i get all the above done or not, i'm still really grateful that the holidays are here :). it has been a hectic term...=_=.
and yaaaay! i'm lookin forward to the 7th of october :) gonna celebrate mr chiang's bday in the early aft, then aft tat rush off to meet my er mei pai xD mf told me she booked a restarurant. o_o i'm ...stunned. haha. RESTAURANT???! lol..ok la. anything for xiao hun ya :) ?

i wanna go for the jap film fest tooo....but hu wanna go with meeeeeeeeeee??? (hint hint to all my darlings. hoho xP !)
mmm! i wanna work out and get great abs too. haha. then maybe we can go buy our 2 piece swim suit, aman! and we can go tanning, qy! get rid of all ur bad tan lines...then when we get back to sch we'll be beeaauutiful bikini babes! hoho :P ! i miss Him too. gotta get back in touch with Him this hols. :( drifting again. i must do my quiet time at nite!! no more excuses since i'm not pullin late nites for projects anymore. :) yay!!! may this hols be fruitful and happy (and chummy).