garr. went swimming with aud as usual today :( but i was so out of form. swam like, less than half the amount i normally swim and was swimming at snail pace. i'm wondering if it's because i feel so darn sleepy or it's just matters of the heart.

yesterday was a rather interesting day. during animation class, i realised i'm one of the few (or only one?) that mr bhakta calls by name. whenever he gives an explanation to a grp of us, he'll ask me, only me, "Clara, do you understand?" in a nice smiley manner, of cos.
its startin to make me wonder if i haf the word 'dense' or 'wols' written across my face. x(

there was also an interesting article about the link between artists, sex and schizophrenics in the Life! newspaper ytd.
the reporter writes: "..British psychologists released a study...the average artist has twice as many sexuals partners as non-artists. They also found that artists shared key behavioural traits with schizophrenics....Schizophrenia, which stems from the Greek words 'shattered mind', is a mental illness characterised by defects in the perception of reality."

so :S alright. now we artists are not only sexual, we're half-nuts too. The reporter totally disagrees with the results of this study, thank God. bonkers results they are! seriously, artists are serious and morally upright ppl :) i'm one perfecto~ example. (aman will account for tat. hurhur) if the study's really true, with spore pushing so hard for the arts scene here, "Singapore could well end up as a nation with as many artists as morally bankrupt schizophrenics." as Clara Chow writes. mmm....all claras haf such brilliant minds. i'm considering naming my child clara too~! haha. oh dear. i'm loving myself too much xD

but garr. one part of the article spills the beans about every artists' secret. quoting from british artist dino chapman, "(asserting that artists often lead boring lives, Chapman added) The truth is that artists aren't that special. People just like to think so - especially artists. They don't deny it because the industry thrives on this very premise (and it makes them feel loved and important)."
so there. i'm not special. boo hoo hoo.

alright now. i'll be serious and start what i really want to write. my maid's going home and i can't bear to let her go :( i love bak kus and she's more like my friend. bawled my eyes out and i'm feeling better but it's just all so bitter. just a few days before she was notified she was to go home, she saw one of my assignments and she went "Yan yan, can u draw for me? I give u your first job ok? i want a big big picture (and gestures the size of it)...u colour than i buy from u ok? anything also can!...sunset, the beach...:D"

haha. i was feeling over the moon when she said tat. my first job as a designer! and it's just so differrent when u're doing something just to get an A compared to when u're doing something for someone you really care abt. i said i'd do it for her during my hols, but my hols aren't even here and she's flying off. it doesnt feel that bad when there are tons of things to do and ppl ard, but when it's quiet, tat's when reality starts sinking in and you know she's going to go. no more cheery hellos when i reach home, no more beehoon just the way i like it, no more water bottles by the window when i go to sch, no more just knowing she's there :( maid? what maid? my friend's leaving me as an early xmas gift.

sad things aside, there's a dg camp this weekend xD one that i can go to!
( :( turns out they're also goin to indo for a retreat from the 12th-14th dec....i wonder if they rmb tat i'm still schling and i'm not able to go :((( )
and....woots!! this weekend will be my church's first week at our new & bigger space..........
EXPO!!! :)
the move is termed "The Big Move" and there's a pretty tshirt abt a mustard seed tat comes along with the move xD no matter how i look at it, it beats having to travel all the way to marine parade. hoho

God has His ways of blessing me ^_^