OBSESSIONS.
i realise something about myself. everytime i stop obsessing abt something, it's because something else has replaced it. there's never once i'm not obsessed with something.
right now, i'm obsessed abt getting a tablet, mostly cos i've been obsessed with testdrive's art, which is actually a very beautiful mix of style of kazuya minekura's & nanae chrono's, both whom testdrive is really obsessed with. what a wonderful surge of obsession.
I'M SO TOTALLY OBSESSED. RAWWWRRRR.

obsessed:
1- having or showing excessive or compulsive concern with something
2- influenced or controlled by a powerful force such as a strong emotion
**__** brawwrr.
so every now and then, my idle hand drifts into a pencil-holding position and i wonder when i can get a tablet. i made my decision a little too slow to get the sch's, but i'll just get it from simlim anyway.
but then of cos T_T i guess i'll first have to improve my drawing before i can draw like testdrive. how forgetful my hands are. just a few weeks from drawing and it already forgot. baaaa. T_T i'm so horrible now. (yes, i realise i'm a teeny whinier nowadays T_T)

so i think i shall now go down and jog away all these stuffed emotions. this hope of drawing well and the fact that i currently can't. can you believe it. i'm gonna go jog. i'll be huffing on my third step, but at least it's cool today. ba. all i do is sit or stand or walk nowadays. i'm an unhealthy mangled blob and i think my butt might actually go flat from all this sitting. baaaa.