.walk. a. ton.

i went for a walkaton ytd! it really wasn't much. LOL. like, 5.5km? i bet i walk more when i go shopping =x anyhow, i think i made a sacrifice, which was to wake up at 5.30am in the morning! *beams with pride* haha. i invited aud along and after the walk i went with her to ajisen to give her her long overdue treat. aaaaawww. i won't be able to meet up with her for quite a while cos she's got exams and i've got crazy number of assgs due, so :D i'm really happy abt the quality time i spent with her ytd! :D

after lunch i went back to sch, yes, on a saturday, to do moooooore assgs. i practically live in sch nowadays, lol. BUT OH YES. i'd like to say i really like it :D
(and no, don't worry i'm not goin to go on abt scott caple) it's a really nice feeling when it's already 9.30pm in sch and the labs and animation studios are still packed with ppl doing assgs! :D so homely! lol. of cos, the people there makes you feel really good too, like how everyone's so nice and willing to help, and how some ppl you've just met an hour ago can talk crap with you like u're old friends. haha! :D i love sch (i think)!

so me and mada sat our butts numb till abt 7.30pm then went off for dinner. we got distracted by the BEAUTIFUL sky, so we started snapping photos with aman's lumix and i'll post up some once i get them :D i got amanda to post silly stuff for me too (HAHA) and we took paparazzi-lookalike photos of each other~~~ *shall go ps it, haha!*

:)

OH. AND HERE'S A HUUUUGE APOLOGY TO TIMOTHY. I'M SOOO SOOO SORRY I FORGOT T_T really really. SORRRYYY!!! T_T

of strangers and buses

eee! i have something to tell everyone!

:D ytd when i was riding the train home at 10+pm, carrying my drawing folio with the "Jesus Is The Answer" sticker on it, this china lady came up to talk to me! hooray! another stranger turned friend. :D

She asked if i was a Christian. and you know, it sounds pretty chim in chinese already, 'ji du jiao tu' plus her china accent so i went "huh?" a couple of times before i got it. LOL. but Yea!!! :D

She told me she came to talk to me cos she felt Christians are very warm and make her feel loved *beams with pride*, and cos she stays at the pandan area, i actually talked to her in chinese for 45 MINUTES. lol. in chinese! i felt so embarassed at my horrible chinese but she said it's fine x)

and she was sharing with me how she doesn't feel lonely even though she's away from home cos she can feel God beside her always. i was like WOW O_O GOD REALLY WANTS ME TO KNOW HE CARES. lol. and He's telling it to me so directly. i mean, i really feel blessed because here i am standing on the train and a fellow christian comes up to me to talk about God's wonderful love when other ppl in other parts of the world are getting prosecuted for believing in God :(

she was also sharing with me how she has grown wiser than she had in all her years after coming to know Christ, and even shared how she sometimes throws her temper at God for all the injustice in this world, but in the end comes back to find her place with Him after reading the bible and finding the answers. haha. i don't know about you, but i feel that's so wow for a complete stranger to come up to talk to you about such personal issues and share God's love :D

she also told me how God's love is so different from any other and i was nodding vigorously and i bet we both looked like we were swooning over some movie star. lol. She's such a great girl! :D her name is Wen Ying, and her fav s'pore food is curry chicken. LOL. and! she's 3 yrs older than me, and she's gonna take her o'lvls nx yr. but she's already workin in a wafer company! where you have to wear clean suits and such. lol. like, wow, memories x)

ahhh! i feel so good making a new friend on the train once again :D this time i even got her number. i was on my toes the whole time i had the conversation with her cos my chinese sucks shit and she was using all sorts of chim words chummed up with an accent. lol. :D but, oh!!! what wonderful ways God uses to speak to me x) a wonderful end to a day after 14 hrs in sch!

qy said i might meet my boyfriend as a stranger. HAHA. *imagination runs wild xD*

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bear with me :D i have tons to say.

ytd i dreamt i was a bus driver! HAHA. then something happened to someone important to me, so i just stopped my bus at an interchange tat my bus didn't belong to and ran off to the hospital. don't ask me why i didn't drive myself there. dreams are silly.

then it started pouring, so i used my art folio to sheild myself from the rain. (when i told aman this she said it must have been the impression of shi han holding his folio over my head to cover the light when i was drinking from the cooler x) which i find very possible) ya, so while running in the rain i met perry, shi han & mada, so i stopped to eat with them.

then i was very worried about my bus, so i decided to tell them i was a bus driver. they didn't believe me!!!! LOL. then i teleported to a movie theatre, and halfway through the movie, SBS drivers barged in with torch lights and searched every row. i was so scared cos i knew they came to catch me for leaving the bus there in the middle of the interchange. LOL. so i nudged amanda and told her they've come for me. only then she believed me and we both kinda panicked.

"Then how?" i remeber her saying. she always says that in real life too. lol.

then i woke up.
I DON'T WANNA BE A BUS DRIVER :( :( :( !!!

hello everyone! just to bring your attention to a seldom-visited column of my blog (i think), i've linked sq :D he has a nice blog. v shi qi. HAHA. philosophical once in a while and nice! :) do drop by~~~

so i was walking home today aft doing toonz (this coloring software to color ur animations) till late. saw all the pretty stars once again walking by the carpark and decided that yes. NYP is a very romantic place. haha. there're always stars.

anyhow, i feel loved today x) and i'd like to say that yea, me and my poly friends haven't been through much together, perhaps just ploughing through assignments together into the night for a year or so, sharing tips on softwares and techniques, sources to get videos and sounds for animations... and i'd say hardly anyone i know is selfish :)

we're always doing crazy stuff together like screaming in the toilets, pretending to walk like gangsters cum ducks down the corridors, picking out all the spots we've smudged ourselves black with the dirty charcoal, singing jason mraz in the labs, and making fun of all our lecturers' various accents. o yes! it's RACIAL HARMONY DAY :D haha.

but well, point is, i'd like to say i think these ppl have made me feel as if i've known them for a rather long time even though i might have just talked to them once or twice x) aw. ok. i'm in the chummy mood tonight! but, well, ya, thank you~
i feel we're gonna go far together (;



A lá happy family~!...

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

just for you,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY D'PANG!!!!
:D you're 18 already, you oldie! hope you had a really happy birthday and a blessed year ahead! x) may we rmb each other's bday till a ripe old age, handsome! haha.

iyiki dogdun, ah pang :)
- that's happy bday in turkish! :D

in light of kl's and aud's posts, i'd like to say that i don't understand what they can't understand :S
what's there that i have written that has been flooded with art terms and such? i don't use art terms (lest you include one mention of 'quickmask', 'concept artist', 'paint', and 'pencil'...) and anyhow, i can't think of any art terms that i know of that don't explain themselves in english.
i'm a commercial artist aft all, i'm no fine artist. i do what you see ard you.

and this IS my everyday life i'm blogging about - my excitement about meeting these famous artists and getting their autographs and posting up some of my paintings. erm. i really don't see what's so art abt all tat.

Maybe you don't understand the name Art Germ or Scott Caple, you cld replace it with say, Takeshi Kaneshiro. so yes, i think i sound just like any fan girl just that my hero is not...your hero?

Maybe you don't understand how i'm so awed at the amount of details Scott Caple can draw on a tiny paper, so just replace it with say, how Hyde grew a moustache one day and the world became fascinated and there were newspapers all over abt his cute little moustache.

i'd even say it's like qy's canoeing.
'row for the team' (paint for the sheer beauty of pretty pictures),
'thank you Mr Goh' (thank you Scott Caple for sharing your wonderful knowledge and drawings with us),
'i want to row' (i want to paint).
really, what's so art about what i want? it's what i feel.
mourning about not being able to draw this and that, is like you mourning abt test results. of cos i hope you ppl will understand me, but i don't expect all of you to.

:) no offence taken of cos. There's nthin to cheer up abt cos there was nthin to be sad abt in the first place, and there's a reason why i'm not in your schools and have a different bunch of friends who have the same dream as me :) smile, cos it's my blog! lol.

I BOUGHT THE ARTBOOK THAT I'VE BEEN PINING FOR SINCE I SAW IT.

I BOUGHT IT AT CG OVERDRIVE FOR JUST $35. WTH.

IT WAS BEYOND MY DREAMS THAT I THOUGHT I MITE BE ABLE TO MEET ARTGERM aka Stanley and buy it from the art director of Imaginary Friends Studios himself ! xD **squeels**

He's like, my idol. LOL. and hey hey hey! he's Singaporean! it's not such a far dream after all to paint awesome xD squeel. and now...i don't even have money anymore to watch pirates after a wacom & an artbook. don worry suntec gang! i'll go dig my bag *mopes :(*

Here's the link to that awesome artbook. but of cos, if you wanna buy it, you have to

1.) pay for shipping costs, and
2.) if you want the autographed one, YOU HAVE TO PAY EXTRA.

I DIDNT xD OMG. *SSSSCRRRREEEEAAAAAMMMM** i bought it off the shelve of their station and got his autograph *_* I FEEL LIKE A UBER HIGH FAN GIRL NOW.
manda and i went forward kinda embarassed to ask for his autograph. x) i'm so honored. i got his signature. lol. i cldn't care for signatures from big stars, really.

but art germ. now that is what i look for. hehe. i feel like such a dork! but xD oh man. it's just so great to see masters like that. i even overheard someone say that if we just touch the hems of his clothes, we mite get a bit of his talent. haha. LIKE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *_* ART GERM OF DEVIANT!

ah, talkin abt masters, we had the honor of seeing Scott Caple's portfolio too. He did concept designs for films like Hunchback of Notre Dame, Atlantis, Mulan, The Incredibles and etcetc... (*not enuff fingers to count his achievements*)
i'm just AWED at his drawing of the cathedral for hunchback of notre dame. the magic he creates with a mere pencil. every nook and crany of the city, he drew out. it's almost like you cld take a binoculars and zoom in on one spot and you'd still see more cracks and ants, even. lol.
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a quick erm, sketch? cos i feel i've been neglecting my wacom.
...although neglect doesn't mean i've done any real assgs...=x

i was really angry with my brother today again cos he's just so ass-edly RUDE, but i didnt show my anger, i wanted to paint a picture of me feeding him to crocs too, but i didn't. i'll hold it in for now. i wonder what i'd do to him when i really do explode. that ass. lol.

yay! i can at least update my deviant with this sketch. at least its complete, albeit kinda lacking of details :S

i talked to qy just now :D like, on the phone! haha. *happy*
and she says going to cg overdrive is like buying stationary -.- wth. it's so much more exciting. and informative. and awesome. and inspiring. graphics are my love *_*!
although i must say i like buying stationary too :S

ehhhh. heh heh ^^;
i'm kinda stupid. to change back to normal layer mode is sooo easy! lol. just a click of a button from quickmask back to normal. quickmask allows you to paint in the alpha channel according to shi han. shi han's so smart. haha. i hereby give him a BIG THANK YOU on my blog x) well, now i get to do my painting...but i'm gonna push it to tml. i deserve some good sleep! x) YES I DO ! i can't wait to go to sleep x) even the wonderfully thick mocha vanilla coffee calling me from the cupboard cldn't keep me up today.

It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

WHAT HAVE I DONE?!
i don't know what i changed, but now my photoshop layers appear as grey when i select them compared to the normal blue. this affects the whole painting cos when i paint black, it comes out red. like wth. i had this prob b4, but i just pressed undo and it was solved. now i can't undo cos i saved from last nite's work and ....ya. it's just halfdone, i duno how to solve the problem cos i don't even know what property i changed...and all my effort ytd was wasted cos i still need to touch up and now i can't so i can no longer show it to the Scott Caple guy comin to review my work T_T lets see. he's worked in all the big studios i can think of and he's gonna look at my folio and go 'this girl sucks'. whinewhinewhine.

the ppl i asked duno wads the prob too, so the only prob now...is that i have no painting to put in my portfolio. what have i done? damn my lousy ps cs2 skills. *FUSTRATED*

planning on painting this but seems a little ambitious eh?
it's titled "Ask me to stay".
i'm gonna get rid of those fingers sticking out at the bottom left. rar. my hands just don't work well, AND the perspective looks a bit wonked! is it is it? :S perspective just kills my brain cells but i mustttt master it to be a concept artist. lol. big dreams here.
and yes. i think most can tell i'm converting this to a sketchblog~! i mean, i'll still be ranting and stuff just that i'm putting in snippets of my non-sch related work to keep check of my own progress. i feel it's really useful cos i don like to write dates on my drawings, and this can help me see how i've progressed/not improved at all :) ah~~~ how deviant motivates me! heh! it helps that a lot of ppl i'm stalking have sketchblogs. maybe it'd help me to get better!
i just hope i can keep this up.

and this here is a link to the process of this person called gunnmgally on deviant for one of her works. it's like watching her do her work step by step, from the outlines to the blockin in of color & then straightening out the painting, fast-forward. *_* just lovely. i think it's very insightful and everyone shld watch it! (don worry the load is uber fast :)

scoop that moon up

*_* my tablet is distracting me and i'm not doing my assgs. so i shall abstain from it...for today! *_* just today.

beautiful video of umbrellas, held hands,heartfelt words & love not spoken in words *_*. enchanting! the art director is a genius
mr children - i love you

i'm so conceited I CAN'T STAND IT.
i'm narcissist T_T

okokokok.
i'm not going. lol.
after much suffering and pulling my brain apart, i decided i'll skip this year, and go to siggraph next year, like how my mum encourages me to. after all that traumatic decision making....amanda tells me that the china airline is not available after all and there's only the dbl deck SQ plane. thank God i didn't cancel my cancellation of the siggraph ticket!

and i feel like a drug addict. i'm obscenely obsessed with deviant. like o_o how many of those talented ppl are there out there?!

so got inspired once again and did this. disclaimer: it's not my concept, but i realllly loved how the artist did it, so i painted my own beach and plane and came up with my own little story :)
(the full story)

Anyway
I'd use it everyday like you'd want me to
I'll want it everyway like it needs me to
But
I'd give it up anyday should you
Need me still
Because right now
It's not in every way that I can
see you through
And it's not in everyday that I get
a clue from you
No matter, because
I'd do it,
Anyway.

pls don save this version cos it's low res. pm me if u want the high res one :)

T_T i'm trying to get good yummy lips, but i failed.

anyhow, now there's a big hooha cos i think quite a few ppl are backing out, but they managed to secure us a China airline flight, which is 1k cheaper.
my mum's horrified i'm taking that, cos she said there's no aircon and the hygeine is terrible. she says it's a nightmare plane. LOL. i'm like "NOT EVEN HYGEINE?!! O_o " lol. i'm thinking about it. thinking. it's confusing, it's so messed up =_= i think i'll wait for my dad and discuss with him...

... '_' ...

2 hrs - painting practice again! didn't go very quick today cos my eyes are smarting like crazy *_* i feel like i've just cried. and my drapery sucks like shit '_'

anyway, BIG NEWS: i will NOT be going to Boston anymore.
not cos my parents can't afford it, not cos they don't allow me to.
but cos i don't want to anymore.

the cost is climbing like a starved monkey up a banana tree. waaaaay past the 4k they said it wld be. they want us to take a $2400 SQ airplane. you know the double deck one with the games room? executive economy class?
yes, sounds lovely, but i know what i'm going there for. i know what i'm going there as. i'm a student going there to study. ass you rubbish travel agencies, booking a flight 3 weeks before we take off?! yes, tell us that you don't have other flights with 22 seats, but they shld have booked when we planned this months ago. the air tickets shld have been settled before i bought my siggraph ticket.

so NO, i won't let them eat up my daddy's hard earned money like that. who knows what the hell they'd be planning for us in newyork. Hiding the budget hostels from us and giving us hotels might just be it. they're so irresponsible abt us students i feel angry for my dad. it makes me even angrier he doesn't really seem to be angry =_= ROAR. THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT THE MORE I WANT TO CALL THAT AUDREY YONG AND DEMAND REASONS FOR DISGUSTING PLANNING SKILLS.

i don't deserve to be treated so nice by my parents. i've done nthin really good, not accomplished anything awesome, never been totally filial.
so i'm at least gonna keep my head and decide for both them and i this time. i know i'm going there to learn. i don't need executive seats?! hell, i'd take some obsure China airline if need be.
Roar. irresponsible asses. what do they think our parents are?!
i'm glad i'm not going to Boston. i will go to Siggraph one day, as a student or independent, but definitely making sure i'm safe and not cheated by some irresponsible travel agency trying to eat my parent's money.

I GOT MY WACOM TABLET TODAY!!!
i cldn't wait any longer, so i went to the store to get it. *overjoyed* *_*

painting practice :D!
no cast shadows, no form, blabla, pretty bad, but yupp :) practice makes perfect! my first time painting in about a year! i love it *_*
rushed in less than an hr. i'm sticking to my wacom foreeevvveeeerrr (echoes: and ever and ever and ever...)

x) x)) x)))

NEW SHOES !!!

WEE! i'm overjoyed :D i was determined not to bring my hole-y sneakers to boston and have it fall apart (memories of broken slippers flash in my mind), so i got my lovely mummy to shop with me as i coughed my way down orchard road. in the end, i bought checkered...erm. shoes. i don't know what you call them. they're not sneakers, they don't have any shoelace :S i was gonna get the polka dotted one, but alas, my luck with shoes are nv good. whatever it is that i reeeeally want, they won't have my size for it.

then i was fascinated by these wedges at charles and keith cos they're so light and comfy, but...=_= there wasn't my size. so we walked abt and decided to go shop at citylink.
there, i spent half an hr (or more '_') in Charles & Keith alone deciding which shoe to buy even though they had the wedges i wanted in my size =x i'm so fickle! but! there were so many nicer (more elegant =x) heels...and i found one white one that i reaaally liked and was reaaaally comfy, but of cos. don't have my size. haha. so i ended up buying those wedges that look really casual cos it's kinda like made up of strings, but yea :) i still like them. i cld run in them! :D so comfy.
ok. i sound like i don't have a brain and all i can talk about is shoes.

ah wait. before i end my blabber abt shopping, i'd like to say MY MUMMY IS THE BEST MUMMY IN THE WORLD *_* and the MOST PATIENT. i doubt anyone but her wld wait without a single complaint, pay for my shoes, AND still look happy aft i spend half an hr in a shoe shop trying on the same shoe over and over *_* my mum is a great mum. i aspire to be like her. hur hur! x)i feel really spoilt today x)

i have decided! that when i die, i want this to be engraved on my tombstone (if there's even space anymore for stuff like that nx time):
"She longed to be close to God :) "
tat wld be an ironical phrase eh :0
(*note*-smiley face is a must)

for some reason, i kept hearing this song by eric clapton today. it's now stuck in my head, and i think mr clapton must have been a very sweet guy to be writing sweet songs like this.

It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."

We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."

I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."