:D everyone's calling clara! LOL.

hooooraaaayyy~ i love talking on the phone. lol. i'm talking to mada now, talked to shi han early early in the day, and a few days ago jing kai and d'pang and auuuuuudreeey, all for a few hours :D my studio project is about to end, and i'd really like to thank pang and jk for being so nice and calling/smsing to make sure i go home early and not be stressed. i am blessed! x) love!

thank uuu all :) it's ending sooooon! Hallejulah xD !
i want to do this one day!

i like what was written on tryphena's shirt ytd.

*** " same shit, different day " ***
lol.

i know i know i know. i'm not supposed to be doing this *_* but! i haven't touched my tablet in mmoooonnnttthsss *caresses it tenderly*
ok, so this is nthin impressive but it just makes me happy to use lovely wacom once more x)

we complain abt the friggin heat, but really, it's still beautiful :)
listening to and inspired by: Sway by Bic Runga :)

hello world !

:D i'm feeling really light hearted today, for reasons i can't really pinpoint x) but ah, feels so odd to feel so good in the middle of studio project 3. haha. i haven been doing much work today =x so i hereby declare i'll spend tonight putting in all the details for the scenes i've worked out.

oh yes! for the first time in almost 2 long years, i finally ran into ELEANOR! Like, she's been beside my sch all the while, but i've never ever met her. then on monday (or was it tues?) i was sleeping on the train, and when i got up to alight at yck, someone smacked me on the back. haha. tat bugger. she was late!
then there was ytd, when i was goin to sch at 6pm, and she came up the escalator as i was going down :D haha. feels nice to see an old friend after so long.

and that's abt all the extra stuff there is to my EWS life. hope to meet many more old friends soon :D holidays, i'm running after you~! just 2 more weeks!

i like talking to you, really x)

and here goes! paparazzi pictures me and mada took on some saturday :)

a question, "why?"

i want to be serious. i really do.
i have my sleep, i have enough to eat,
but i'm not working hard enough, fast enough T_T
WHY??? WHY WHY WHY?
why can't i concentrate????
faaaaaaasssssssssttttterrrrr, haaaaaaaaarrddder I MUST WORK.
I MUST WORK.
I MUST WORK.
I MUST WORK.
*slaps self*

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ok, you know what, what i typed about in the previous entry, is half rubbish. i don'tttttt want those words. any words from anybody. sweet nice words, red angry words, i don't want any. they give you lots to think about, and really, all of it aren't things i want to think about now. i ask God to help me focus on him, but it's really hard sometimes. they're just on your mind ALL the time, whether you like them, or hate them or are jealous of them, or angry at them, or worry for them, it doesn't really matter, you still think about them. aaaaaaaaaahhhhhh. i'm so rarrrrrrrr-ed. i feel,
almost inferior.
ok. maybe i am, how can i not be? they're really better, in everyway. you're serious, and so am i when i say this.

everyone who doesn't want messy problems, raise your handssssss!!!!
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little irritating words that you shouldn't mustn't care for.

weeee. blog.
on sat i went to watch the lakehouse! haha. thank uuu, sq for ur treat :D it wasn't as good as i expected it to be, sweet but like :S no climax? the end was really abrupt too. and they didn't play our soooong! lol. anyhow, i enjoyed going out with sq and watching him eat a no-vege subway =x HAHA! silly.
on sun, went to church and had cell grp, and desmond finally came this week. lol. he hasn't been comin for a reaaaally long time.

you know, i wanna post something thoughtful, something interesting. then i realised that now, the only person that'd be interested in what i do everyday...is myself. seriously, it's realllly boring if u see it from outside.
to sum up everyday, it'd be three words: eat, work, sleep - E.W.S

so if you don't see any posts up for a long time, just think EWS.
and i'm not sure if everyone gets this, but sometimes certain ppl say things that they don't really mean for you to remember, but those little words just get stuck in your ears and scratch at your eardrums everyday, and you care too much for these little things that might not really matter or are not easy to bring up and talk about.
so you mumble abt it to yourself for days, and finally when you get the courage to ask these ppl abt the little things they said, they give you the answer you don't want to hear and you think, hey. maybe i shld have asked them abt it long ago, since the answer has nthin i shld prepare for, because,
maybe the little words were never for me.
then you start to wonder if you were hoping they meant it for you, and then you get fustrated because it really wasn't meant for you, you try to ignore it, can't, then, you blog abt it. bla -_-.

i'm not supposed to have time to do this (blog =x) but ah, well.
in short, last night i stayed over in sch to do assgs with mada, daryl, shi han, billy and li xiong, and we all went without a wink of sleep, and were surprisingly energetic throughout the night. (fustration at buggy softwares gets your adrenaline going, i guess. lol.)

when the guards came to check for our permits to stay, mada and i scuttled to the toilet to hide, and sat on the ledge above the toilet bowls, and felt very much like fugitives. i'm sad i missed the fireworks, but...well, i think it was worth the sacrifice.

there was no air-con in the labs, so we went out for fresh (really fresh) air outside at abt 3+am and NYP is so beautiful at night/early morning! the open-air corridors are lit up at the sides, and the reflection of the light in the puddles made it seem like some dreamland where everything sparkles. The rain was softly pattering, and we sat on the steps just out of the water's reach and chatted for about an hr. haha! all sorts of funny stories came tumbling out.

reached home at 8+ today and slept till 12+, and now i'm gonna go back to do my work. :D aaaah. hope it rains again tonight.

i'd like to say, that today i have a heavy but happy heart.

in short, aud made ai xin pasta for me :D with red sauce, onions and minced pork. she brought this HUGE box of pasta for me to eat at kembangan station cos i was on my way to church. it feels so nice to sit on the steps and eat something someone specially made for you :) i am looooooved~

then i got up to buy a drink and aud nonchalantly went, "oh, pokka lemon right."
haha! i love like, a million soft drinks, and i don always drink tat ard her, so i think it's real telepathy :D and yea. that made me really happy too.

i re-read a postcard that charlyn wrote to me on thursday, :) and i'm happy too! just knowing someone pays attention to my little details. :) thank you.

and i read qy's blog and got reminded of how we're gonna webcam each other if i ever go overseas to study and tat she doesn't want to see me in my sexxxxy pjs. haha!

i'm afraid to lose, but,
yes. happy .

i i i i i i i i i just heard this. been a aeons since i last heard it and i'm thinking**. something about you, now (;

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

i have something to tell you!